goblue goblue goblue!!! 'official' congratulations! that was right around my first beta, too
so, what now?
perdita and kristin... i am thinking of you both and sending you lots of positivity. hang in there! the countdown is on. isn't it aweful?! i dreaded that phonecall. probably the most nerve wracking part of the whole process so far. i am really feeling for you both! i was so nervous about it, i mentioned it to my therapist and to her it sounded like i needed to be 'watched' in case of a negative. i was so scared of that phonecall, and didn't know how i would react if it was a negative beta. so, knowing that, the day before, i tried really hard to have some options in place in my mind in case of a negative. like, not jumping off a cliff. seriously! i don't know if you felt like that, but, i did and it really helped me to plan ahead at least a little to help not spiral down too far. i don't mean to be a downer, but i was reading the posts about the dreaded phonecall and it made me think of that.
omgoodness. i am so sorry you had to have that kind of scare! i would have been out of my mind. did they see anything on the u/s to indicate why the cramping, etc? i am so glad the baby is safe and sound! i'll be sending you some good, healthy energy for that cramping, etc to cease and decist!!
i am doing well, i guess. i am 7w4d today, and i have another u/s on friday. these u/s are mostly for my own peace of mind. it is hard
to refuse them and just 'go with the flow' and try to trust that its all ok... so i am going and i hope to see an 8 week healthy heartbeating baby!
this is a general issue for me, really. with my first pregnancy, there were no problems and my care was pretty hand's off and laid back. coming to terms with the fact that lots of things happened between then and now, well, there is a dichotomy happening inside me... i want that 'hand's off' experience again, becaue that's the kind of person i am idealogically, but i also want monitering because i have had some traumatic losses!! so, i am having lots of thoughts trying to balance this. basically the advise i have been getting is to take it day by day and to listen to my instincts, not judge myself... which is good advise!
goblue, so happy for you!