So, as far as splitting time with my dds, I actually have a lot more time than stbx does, as I do not yet have a job. They are with him 3-4 evenings a week, and dd1 spend the night two of those evenings. Then they are with him saturdays, dd1 all day, and dd2 for around 4 hours (it'll be 5 today). But when i dropped dd2 off with stbx this morning, and gave dd1 a big hug, and left, I sobbed and sobbed in the car. The evenings they are with him are soooo hard too, and I miss them terribly. I get in this place, sometimes, where I am so upset that stbx left and is therefore forcing me to have less time with them, that I think things like "he doesn't deserve to be with them." And he does deserve to be, he's actually a really great dad, and they totally deserve to spend time with him too, but it's just killing me right now that I don't get to be with my girls.
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3/29/08 at 1:59pm