Originally Posted by its_our_family
With my first it was too traumatic to remember much.
It's funny. I remember OR so clearly - the pattern on the border wallpaper, the drape, the lights, the table...but I really don't remember details from the surgery very well. I remember people talking. I remember a few bits and pieces, because they hit home (comments about the actual surgery, the tugs and "pressure", the fact that the anesthesiologist and dh were the only people in there who seemed to have a clue that I was a human being, and a terrified one at that). Mostly, I just remember being terrified, wanting to die and wondering why this was happening again
(I was under general for the first one). I can't remember dd's first sounds, and I barely remember "holding" her in OR - just from the pictures. I remember a little more with ds2, but not much. I'll never forget the two cesareans when I was awake...but I honestly don't remember them very well.