How do you all deal with the totally irrational sense of personal failure? What I mean is, it's my body that's broken, and that makes me feel like I am somehow failing... or maybe not as much of a woman as I should be... totally crazy, I know, but I'm sure I'm not the only one.
While I agree it may be irrational, I think this is a common feeling for those with infertility. At least, I know exactly what you mean. It took a long time for my dh to understand why I was so upset over the c-section for my dd. To me, it was just another way of my body failing me and proof that I was less of a woman. On the plus side, since I was so upset that I needed medical intervention to get pregnant and to give birth, I was darn well determined to breastfeed. That determination led to me continuing to breastfeed my 21 month old today.
I know with my mind that none of us with infertility are failing, but I still need to remind my heart of that a lot.
Looking at the bright side, we're moving this week and since I'm apparently not ovulating any time soon, if ever, I have no qualms about throwing myself whole-heartedly into helping move in and all the physical work that involves. I'm also not feeling pressure to try and squeeze in a lot of bd sessions while living with friends, moving and visiting family. Tomorrow I see the RE and we'll see what he has to tell me.