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post #101 of 118
mischievium - thanks a bunch. It's heartbreaking, but then I try to look at it the other way and think to myself that if what I am going through now will help someone else later to not have to deal with as much, then so be it. There's a reason, I just can't possibly see it yet.

Aly - Here's to hoping for you!!!

Kristenok18 and julia'smom - Someday our trains will remain on track too....
post #102 of 118
mischievium: That is fine that I am in a seperate section.... Just happy to be around women that are understanding...

Aly22681: Congrads!!! Maybe you will have twins or even triplets!!:::

kristenok18: Thank you for welcoming me and I am so sorry to here about your situation sending lots of : and 1praying::

How has everyone been in the last few days??
post #103 of 118
Well, results from this morning's blood and ultrasound are in. Not too surprising, they say I am not responding to the clomid. So, I have a re-consult with the RE to determine the next step.
post #104 of 118
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Well, results from this morning's blood and ultrasound are in. Not too surprising, they say I am not responding to the clomid. So, I have a re-consult with the RE to determine the next step.
I'm so sorry .

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To top it off, my co-workers wife had her baby over the weekend. We were pregnant at the same time with our first and now she's had her second. I knew I wouldn't have one by then, but I was really hoping to at least be pregnant before she delivered. Stupid, but I can't help it.
I do this all the time-- the current mental deadline is my birthday in July.


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Mine's the 30th... can I be your buddy too?
Of course!

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Of course! We'll be the Radioactive Dye Up Our Hoohas Crew.
Oooooh! Doesn't that sound like a beginning of a comic book?

"They were 3 everyday strangers going about their everyday lives, until, in the course of routine medical testing, radioactive dye was shot up their hoohas! Bound into sisterhood by their glowing uteri of doom, The Radioactive Dye Up Our Hooha Avengers secretly prowl the Halls of Medicine protecting innocent (and not so innocent ) hoohas from the falling prey to the evil Dr. Dildocam and his menacing Speculum of Fire!"

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BTW, my chromosomes are normal, so at least that's good. But I am freaking the heck out about whatever they'll find, uterus-wise, on Wednesday.
Yay for the normal chromosomes! I'm right there with you, I mean, my intuition says my fallopian tubes and uterus are fine-- but what if my intuition is wrong?
post #105 of 118
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Oooooh! Doesn't that sound like a beginning of a comic book?

"They were 3 everyday strangers going about their everyday lives, until, in the course of routine medical testing, radioactive dye was shot up their hoohas! Bound into sisterhood by their glowing uteri of doom, The Radioactive Dye Up Our Hooha Avengers secretly prowl the Halls of Medicine protecting innocent (and not so innocent ) hoohas from the falling prey to the evil Dr. Dildocam and his menacing Speculum of Fire!"
this is the funniest thing I have read all day. thanks!

I agree with you actually, some days I'm impatient for things to just get moving! But I'm scared of treatment too, and overall I don't really mind that we're waiting to start. And (this is going to come out all wrong, but) it's sort of freeing to have given up on my body.

How do you all deal with the totally irrational sense of personal failure? What I mean is, it's my body that's broken, and that makes me feel like I am somehow failing... or maybe not as much of a woman as I should be... totally crazy, I know, but I'm sure I'm not the only one.

Julia'sMom, I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now. It's a hard ride.
post #106 of 118
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Oooooh! Doesn't that sound like a beginning of a comic book?

"They were 3 everyday strangers going about their everyday lives, until, in the course of routine medical testing, radioactive dye was shot up their hoohas! Bound into sisterhood by their glowing uteri of doom, The Radioactive Dye Up Our Hooha Avengers secretly prowl the Halls of Medicine protecting innocent (and not so innocent ) hoohas from the falling prey to the evil Dr. Dildocam and his menacing Speculum of Fire!"
THAT is almost scarily well written. Good job!
post #107 of 118
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How do you all deal with the totally irrational sense of personal failure? What I mean is, it's my body that's broken, and that makes me feel like I am somehow failing... or maybe not as much of a woman as I should be... totally crazy, I know, but I'm sure I'm not the only one.
Not totally crazy at all. I think it's normal, especially in this day in age where we believe that if we just work hard enough we can make anything happen. Except we can work as hard as we want at trying to beat infertility and still not get anywhere. Some days I don't deal well at all (like all of last week? ), but others I just try very hard to focus on something that is in my control. Lately it's been nutrition/exercise, probably because I feel that it'll help my pcos. It's hard, though.

Julia'smom- I'm sorry. It's hard to hear that after so much hope. When do you get to talk to your RE?
post #108 of 118
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Go, team RDUOHC!
Indeed! The procedure yesterday was quick and mostly painless. There was one pinch/cramp and nothing other than that. I'm sore today, but nothing that will bother me, I don't think.

And the best news: Everything's fine! The doc actually said that there's nothing better he could have seen. I'm very pleased! Even if I don't get pregnant, at least I know that I haven't blown many, many dollars on swimmers that could NEVER have made it to their destination. And that's something, for sure.
post #109 of 118
eh... no news here... af is still here... blech...

mischievium... very funny... got a good giggle from me


I met my niece yesterday! she is pretty darn wonderful... I cried... a lot... but it was so great to get to see sil and my niece finally.
post #110 of 118
mischievium, you SLAY me.
post #111 of 118
[QUOTE=mischievium;11093153] Oooooh! Doesn't that sound like a beginning of a comic book?

"They were 3 everyday strangers going about their everyday lives, until, in the course of routine medical testing, radioactive dye was shot up their hoohas! Bound into sisterhood by their glowing uteri of doom, The Radioactive Dye Up Our Hooha Avengers secretly prowl the Halls of Medicine protecting innocent (and not so innocent ) hoohas from the falling prey to the evil Dr. Dildocam and his menacing Speculum of Fire!"
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Too darn funny mischievium! It's always nice to laugh when you're having a harder than normal time with the whole situation - keep it up, you'll have a book written in a matter of weeks, and a bunch of hysterically laughing, normally subdued woman who appreciate your humor in a way that fertiles will never understand!!!

I realized the other day that the more I go through the treatment, the more that I, and my body, is getting used to it. Now that's sad... and almost scary... I don't want to be used to it, I still want the needles and the meds to be as foreign to me as Laos!!!
post #112 of 118
mischievium - that's awsome. When I had my HSG many years ago I started laughing. My concerned DH in his lead apron though I was in pain. I had to tell him later that I thought I must have been kidnapped by aliens.
I was laying on a table with a wand up my hoohah and up there on a screen, turned considerately so I could see, was an alien with antenas.

We superwomen have many different origin stories - probed by uterus shaped aliens, bitten by a radioactive speculum.
post #113 of 118
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I met my niece yesterday! she is pretty darn wonderful... I cried... a lot... but it was so great to get to see sil and my niece finally.
I cried my eyes out the first time I met my niece. I love her with all my heart, but it darn near killed me to meet her.
post #114 of 118
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How do you all deal with the totally irrational sense of personal failure? What I mean is, it's my body that's broken, and that makes me feel like I am somehow failing... or maybe not as much of a woman as I should be... totally crazy, I know, but I'm sure I'm not the only one.
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While I agree it may be irrational, I think this is a common feeling for those with infertility. At least, I know exactly what you mean. It took a long time for my dh to understand why I was so upset over the c-section for my dd. To me, it was just another way of my body failing me and proof that I was less of a woman. On the plus side, since I was so upset that I needed medical intervention to get pregnant and to give birth, I was darn well determined to breastfeed. That determination led to me continuing to breastfeed my 21 month old today. I know with my mind that none of us with infertility are failing, but I still need to remind my heart of that a lot.

Looking at the bright side, we're moving this week and since I'm apparently not ovulating any time soon, if ever, I have no qualms about throwing myself whole-heartedly into helping move in and all the physical work that involves. I'm also not feeling pressure to try and squeeze in a lot of bd sessions while living with friends, moving and visiting family. Tomorrow I see the RE and we'll see what he has to tell me.
post #115 of 118
AAM: Had my ultrasound today and, according to the RE, my ovaries are "beautiful" and my uterine lining is "excellent." So we're on for next cycle. Now I just wait to bleed.
post #116 of 118
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AAM: Had my ultrasound today and, according to the RE, my ovaries are "beautiful" and my uterine lining is "excellent." So we're on for next cycle. Now I just wait to bleed.
yay for beautiful ovaries! Congrats. what's next? GL!


Julia'sMom
, what did your RE say?
I can relate a little about TTC while life is happening - we have a lot of family visiting this month, including on my projected ovulation day, so if we have to do IUI again, we'd have to sneak away for a couple hours to go to the doctor's office... I don't know if I can handle that. None of our family knows what we're going through, or even that we are TTC at all. It's getting harder the longer it goes on to keep it a secret...

good luck with your move!

how's everyone else today? this thread has been pretty quiet? everyone okay?

I'm on the last day of my TWW. I either start bleeding today or tomorrow, or I test! I'm biting my nails....
post #117 of 118
Well AF showed up yesterday, so its off to IVF for us. I got into the June Cycle so YAY!!!!!!!!!!! Ugh, I'm just so nervous about the whole process!!
post #118 of 118
The may thread is up and running-

http://www.mothering.com/discussions...d.php?t=889652

Kim
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