My Moping Insomnia Depression Whine....

[New_Natural_Mom]

So we are now past my due date and I am feeling all funky. I am having some pressure waves, but they aren't regular. My cervix is "softening" but my midwife basically had to stick her whole arm up there to get to it. (And I know that doesn't necessarily mean anything, but it didn't make me happy.) I have to go in to get another ultrasound today so she can get a general idea of the baby's size. (Again, knowing it isn't accurate.) I was so focused on having this baby on my due date - knowing only 5% of moms hit that date - but focused nonetheless. I guess I just feel let down. I had MANIC nesting this Sunday - to the point where I woke DH up very early (after I had been cleaning for hours) and told him he had to get up and wash the windows stat. He took it in stride. But now my house is acceptably clean, the baby's stuff is all ready, I have my work projects mostly wrapped up (though I am still technically working), and I am just feeling useless.

I can't sleep, am leaking like a sieve (is this water breaking, mucous, what??!!) I have been up since 3am and am just SUPER depressed.

I've been cranky the last few days and this morning my throat was swollen (but feels normal now.) I am stressed at work b/c my boss is being a mega - b* and making me worry I won't have a job to come back to.

I am just ready for the next step. I feel like I am hanging in limbo.

So sorry - I am whining. I just feel like bawling my eyes out and curling up in a ball - which I can't do b/c it would hurt!

[rubyeta]

Oh My Gosh, you are so, so close! This part is soo hard soon this will just be a distant memory and you will have your sweet baby in your arms. can you do something special for yourself? Massage, pedi, Bubble bath?? you deserve it!!

[upnorthmama]

Keep your eye on the prize mama! Your darling will be here soon.

[chely7425]

I hope you go into labor soon so you can stop being so uncomfortable!! This will all be over soon and you will be holding your beautiful baby!

[Jennisee]

[laurata]

(((hugs))) to you mama. Even though I am not even to my edd yet, I am struggling with these last weeks. Weepy and having trouble with day to day stuff.

It will all be over so soon, before we know it. Focus on one day at a time, or one minute if that's all you can do. Nobody is giving me a pep talk, but I'll give you one.

You can do this. You ARE doing this. Every minute, your baby comes closer to being born. Every minute, you are nurturing your child. This challenging time will be over before you know it.

Can you do something to pamper yourself? Read a trashy novel or watch a chick flick and eat bon bons or something?

[GardenStream]

I remember how hard it is to go over the due date. I think I spent half the day crying. I don't have any words of wisdom, but I know what you're going through and it's awful.