subbing...off to do some Yoga....and then begin my unfolding...
I turn 40 this year, so this one feels big to me....
Kathleen

I turn 40 this year, so this one feels big to me....

Kathleen



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It snowed this morning and noe the sun is shining. I have all my mags (treated myself to 5 as I used some old last year and really felt the need for NEW energy this year). Just cleansed the room I am TMing in, I had wanted to do the whole house but DH was leter leaving out with the kids than I had hoped!
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i thought about the weight loss issue. i had that on my map last year too, and i think i weigh a few pounds more...but i woke up this morning thinking that "weight loss" is too vague. i want to handle (as in ignore or push away) cravings, and i want commitment to my health. so i'm going to find things that have to do with that-- more moment to moment stuff re: handling the heat of the craving moment.
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![]() I started to make a map last night... but I felt no desire to buy any magazines at all, and even looking for pictures online felt kind of 'meh.' I started typing instead, but I know I'll need to write this year, and I have a feeling it will all be words-- no images feel right at all. It's kind of odd... |

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I'm starting with the background paper.. I'm watercoloring my background
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Man, I totally missed an opportunity to intend to have kids busy and out of the house today so I could map, but alas, now I will just be anxiously waiting until tomorrow when I can actually get anything done.
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: Rather, the last vestiges of it, those being Mike. Ugh, I feel ridiculous even admitting that... and absolutely *exposed*. It's not a popular sentiment on MDC, there's a lot of negativity surrounding such ideas (perhaps I'm not the only one with self-esteem issues related to my primary adult relationship). I guess I'll spare myself some criticism and not go into detail here, but that's a really hard thing to completely disconnect... or even to admit that I *need* to disconnect.
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the free stream from the hearts of space website (www.hos.com) is martial arts soundtrack music. perfect for focus, ne?
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There's a whole side-track about getting rid of "low self-esteem items" which are limiting to us... It made me realize what's missing, what I need to do to break the block, but I find it so difficult...
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So out of curiosity, I decided to read the 2004 thread-- the one year I actually managed to make a map, and it waas fairly successful as I recall. There's a whole side-track about getting rid of "low self-esteem items" which are limiting to us... I suppose they have to do with deserving what we want: If I don't deserve, say, a new pair of shoes even though my old ones are falling apart, how can I possibly deserve Abundance or Peace? It made me realize what's missing, what I need to do to break the block, but I find it so difficult...
My low self-esteem "item" is my marriage. : Rather, the last vestiges of it, those being Mike. Ugh, I feel ridiculous even admitting that... and absolutely *exposed*. It's not a popular sentiment on MDC, there's a lot of negativity surrounding such ideas (perhaps I'm not the only one with self-esteem issues related to my primary adult relationship). I guess I'll spare myself some criticism and not go into detail here, but that's a really hard thing to completely disconnect... or even to admit that I *need* to disconnect. |
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