Official Treasure Map --2008 - Page 19

[knittinanny]

Hi everyone. I came to the treasure mapping a bit late and so just lurked through till now...it's been really inspirational reading everyone's posts. DP and I both made maps (thought DP would tease me about making one but instead got really into it!), and I can already feel things happening. I love hearing about the changes in everyone's lives as the map-messages get out there into the universe!

wombat, if it's a good financial deal, can you make some sort of very official business arrangement with your uncle? If you have a guarantee that he'd treat you no different than any other vendor, I don't see the problem. I understand your hesitation though. I'm sure you'll make the right choice!

[wombatclay]

but I do have a question...can't you and your uncle have a separate business relationship where it does NOT include your mom?

I don't know. She is very much involved in his store and the whole business is very "family oriented" (as in, the items are made for the most part by family members). I know from past experience that if I request the sort of standard business contract I get from other vendors who have sold my product the extended family starts in on how I don't trust them, how I feel better than them, etc. And after my one request for such paperwork (3 years ago) I was not asked again to provide product for the store. Her family is very, well, I don't know the word... they're quick to close the gates and slow to open them up again if they feel even the littlest disagreement. Very "family over everything" to outsiders but then they pick each other into bloody bits in private.

My final falling out with my mom was in January 08, and suddenly they are asking again? It just feels wrong. I haven't asked again about contracts since I don't know that I'm interested in pursuing this opportunity, you know? The money would be nice but it wouldn't be a huge amount, and while I do enjoy making my balms I intentionally left them off my map this year since this past year they just weren't making me happy. (For example, I was happy to donate balms for Mighty Mama's raffles but sad at losing my friend, and happy to sell on etsy but annoyed at how often technical glitches left me scrambling to get product to customers).

I know I'm drifting a bit away from TM here... thanks for helping me work through this confusion. Just writing it out is helping me clarify my intent and desires!

[goodcents]

Wombat - what about a "trial run"? This could help you not miss out on an opportunity, but not get you hooked into something long turn if your gut turns out to be right.

I am a believer in following my gut too. The problem that presents itself with this sort of situation is that your gut may be misguided by your past history.

Another words it could be ego and hurt talking (both real btw), but not necessarily your intuition. Its very hard to hear your true voice when there are heavy, background conversations going on, as I imagine is the case here with your family history.

Good luck!

[goodcents]

Originally Posted by Tracy

Goodcents.

I just created an email account with Gmail.

Will you go to Paul's sight and log on with it and see if it can be the TreasureMap Weight Loss Team user account.

here's the email account:

[e-mail]

did it. check your other MD's thread for more details.

sorry i was a little slow on the uptake here.

[elsa_elsa]

I had a dream this afternoon (I was taking a nap with DS) about treasure mapping and just had to share with people who will appreciate it!

In my dream I was looking at what seemed to be last years map - it had a yellow background and lots of healthy pregnant women and I felt like my main theme was having a safe, healthy pregnancy, with a fast easy labour and a healthy baby.

When I woke up I thought about that image. I didn't do an actual map last year, but at my baby shower we had an intention circle - where I said what I wanted to happen during my pregnancy and everyone else held space and sent blessings to me and the baby.

I just checked and that shower was on the new moon in Aries last year - I thought wow - I made a treasure map without even knowing it!

btw - my labour was 4 hours long and not very painful at all. I was up and about the day after and my DS was a healthy happy baby.

[FreeSpiritMama]

Thats wonderful Elsa, thank you for sharing your beautiful experience :

[ebony]

Elsa, what a beautiful, inspiring story!!! Thanks for sharing that and way to go mama!

[Sisyphus]

Tracy, remind me why bumpy is GOOD at the beginning of the new "year"??? OMG, it has just NOT ENDED for me... it's one thing after another after another and I'm feeling like my map is a disaster because so much negative energy has been coming my way (well, it FEELS negative right now, I totally get that it may be positive in the long run and I just can't see it yet).

Words of wisdom? I'm ready to rip it to shreds :cry

[Tracy]

Can I see your map?

[Sisyphus]

AaRGH... somehow I missed your reply til just now, Tracy! I will take a pic tomorrow and send it to you.

Thanks

Lo

[Sisyphus]

Here you go, Tracy, it's the photo stream for my map. I took a pic of the whole thing and then pics of each area. I captioned them so you could tell what was what.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/25083392@N00/?saved=1

The negativity started while I was making the map and has continued, almost daily... last night my dh brought up the subject of divorce!! (which I knew was coming, but I am dealing with SO MUCH CRAP right now, it was just the icing on the cake iykwim).

Please look at it and let me know if there's something there that is "causing" all of this to crash down on me all at once, or if this is simply the storm before the calm LOL... I can totally see that being the case. I've been "stuck" for a long time, so maybe I'm just getting UNstuck and it's painful.

Thank you!

Lo

[crunchyconmomma]

Originally Posted by Sisyphus

Here you go, Tracy, it's the photo stream for my map. I took a pic of the whole thing and then pics of each area. I captioned them so you could tell what was what.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/25083392@N00/?saved=1

The negativity started while I was making the map and has continued, almost daily... last night my dh brought up the subject of divorce!! (which I knew was coming, but I am dealing with SO MUCH CRAP right now, it was just the icing on the cake iykwim).

Please look at it and let me know if there's something there that is "causing" all of this to crash down on me all at once, or if this is simply the storm before the calm LOL... I can totally see that being the case. I've been "stuck" for a long time, so maybe I'm just getting UNstuck and it's painful.

Thank you!

Lo

I'm not Tracy, but it sure seems so very much identical to my life 2+ years ago when everything that was going on (much like your life) caused me to say things that you are saying, ("dealing with so much crap" "negativity" etc) and I just wanted to extend some love to you, because thankfully, I have so much to extend now. My life has radically shifted in ways I NEVER imagined possible, even when imagining that I couldn't imagine the possibilities, KWIM? And it gets better every blinking moment.

And your story, like mine, sounds so much like a huge shift in the alignment necessary for you to soar to new spiritual planes. I'm tingling thinking about it right now.

And hoping so much that at this time you are able to harness some of that energy and ride it for a positive outlook, if even only for 17 seconds!

Oh, and don't rip it to shreds. Perhaps tuck it away where you can forget it for a few (months, years, weeks, I don't know) because I just feel certain that you will come back to it at "that time" and be AMAZED at how setting those intentions on that map allowed for the magnitude of change coming your way.

[ebony]

Originally Posted by Sisyphus

Here you go, Tracy, it's the photo stream for my map. I took a pic of the whole thing and then pics of each area. I captioned them so you could tell what was what.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/25083392@N00/?saved=1

The negativity started while I was making the map and has continued, almost daily... last night my dh brought up the subject of divorce!! (which I knew was coming, but I am dealing with SO MUCH CRAP right now, it was just the icing on the cake iykwim).

Please look at it and let me know if there's something there that is "causing" all of this to crash down on me all at once, or if this is simply the storm before the calm LOL... I can totally see that being the case. I've been "stuck" for a long time, so maybe I'm just getting UNstuck and it's painful.

Thank you!

Lo

I'm not Tracy either but I agree with the PP and I noticed two things stuck out to me when I saw your map.

When I looked at the "Spirituality" (I think that was it) section and saw the "Hollywood" sign I immediately thought, "Drama!" That definitely sounds like what you're dealing with right now. Then I saw that you are writing a book so you plan on having some degree of fame (given the Oprah photo as well) and that's probably why you placed it there.

When I saw your family section, where you wrote "we are a happy family" it really struck me (and please don't take offense, I'm just going by the photo) that everyone looks happy in the picture except your husband.: Maybe this also has something to do with what you're experiencing?

Either way, lots of hugs to you mama!

[Sisyphus]

Thanks

Yes, my dh is unhappy... very much so and refusing to do much about it up to now.

The hollywood sign is actually in my Home section as I'd love to move back to CA, but now I totally see how it could be construed as "drama" LOL... but to me, the Hollywood sign symbolizes home and comfort and like-minded folks. I really want to move back to CA, that's why I put that on there (along with the affirmation that I own my dream house in CA).

I think that you both are confirming my thought that this is just the upheaval needed to create space for better things. I've been through it before, but it doesn't make it any easier LOL.

[annakiss]

You know, Sisyphus, I keep looking at my TM with a bit of disdain these days because I'm so stressed out in general. At the same time, it's more of the same stuff from last year, plus honestly, I sorta asked for it. I'd just like it to be calmer 'round here. I figure I'll get there.

Just because others are having TMs speakin' to 'em right away, doesn't mean all of us will. It all falls into place, I'm sure.

[aweynsayl]

Originally Posted by Sisyphus

I think that you both are confirming my thought that this is just the upheaval needed to create space for better things. I've been through it before, but it doesn't make it any easier LOL.

been there as well. hugs and vibes from the "other" side, as it were.... hang in there!

my tm is putting me thru a bit of the wringer, as it were. making me think about and do things i didnt think i wanted to, but then, i look at the map, and i think... hey. i did kind of ask for this.......

[Maiasaura]

i kind of did my map in such a hurry, compared to last year-- well not a hurry, but...well, yes a hurry because i had a lot less time, plus i was in my class so couldn't put all my mental energy into doing the map.

so, i kind of feel a bit disconnected from it. i'm not as excited about it as i was last year, and i couldn't find "the perfect images" like i did last year, and this year's took way too long to actually finish cause of my class, so it felt like it dragged on and on and started feeling chore-y instead of fun. so i'm not as enamored of it as i was last year.

i did put in stuff that i really care about, but there are other squares where i kind of feel "eh" about. you know, more noncommittal. and there are a couple of blank spaces where i just didn't find any images that i liked so they look bare and less well thought out.

just musing.

i just feel kind of let down, and not as excited as last year's. i hope that the things i put on there decide to manifest anyway

pamela

[Sisyphus]

MAKE IT STOP!!!!

I just got home from spending the night in the hospital with my five year old (his bday is TODAY!) after he woke up yesterday vomiting profusely and couldn't keep ANYthing down Docs have no idea what made him so sick, but he's *fine* today (thank goodness!!!!)

WTH did I do on my map to put so much negativity out there? LOL..

I am exhausted. I am at the end of my proverbial rope. I feel like I am drinking out of a firehose and I can't hold onto it any more. I'm being buried.

[TRIBE]

Hang in there Sisyphus!!!

I went through similar extreme negatives back in July/August. It was so horrible, and so much constant negative that I ended up tossing my hands in the air and losing so much faith in my own beliefs and spirituality. It took months for me to slowly work back in to it.

Once I made my confirmations during the new moon it felt as if something just clicked and switched. Almost like a spiritual reawakening. It was amazing! And that would have never happened without the initial negativity I had happening last year.

Now I have still had some negative moments, going through one right now. But I am more convinced than ever to stay strong, stay focused and never doubt my beliefs. Things will get better but it is so so so hard to see that when you have a dark cloud surrounding you.

(((((sisyphus)))))

[aweynsayl]

ohhh, go read tracy's taurus new moon article!

(great article tracy! thanks!!!)