So out of curiosity, I decided to read the 2004 thread-- the one year I actually managed to make a map, and it waas fairly successful as I recall. There's a whole side-track about getting rid of "low self-esteem items" which are limiting to us... I suppose they have to do with deserving what we want: If I don't deserve, say, a new pair of shoes even though my old ones are falling apart, how can I possibly deserve Abundance or Peace? It made me realize what's missing, what I need to do to break the block, but I find it so difficult...
My low self-esteem "item" is my marriage. : Rather, the last vestiges of it, those being Mike. Ugh, I feel ridiculous even admitting that... and absolutely *exposed*. It's not a popular sentiment on MDC, there's a lot of negativity surrounding such ideas (perhaps I'm not the only one with self-esteem issues related to my primary adult relationship). I guess I'll spare myself some criticism and not go into detail here, but that's a really hard thing to completely disconnect... or even to admit that I *need* to disconnect.
Blessings to you