May I just whine a little?

[~NewMa~]

So I just had my midwife mommy check my cervix for the hell of it since I can't reach (and she was really curious what's going on since today's my "due date"). She said I haven't had any change since my visit on Wednesday when I was told by the NP that I'm 70% effaced.
She said my cervix is slammed shut, although she worked really hard to get a finger in there. She said my cervix is way back there, posterior.
When she finally did get a finger in she said his suture lines feel pretty open still and he feels small, like maybe he's not mature enough to come yet
I was so encouraged by the news of effacement last week. I know that can happen weeks before delivery but I'm at my due date now, so I don't have weeks to wait around. I'm so scared they're gonna have to induce me and my homebirth will be down the drain
I'm so freakin bummed

[ChristyH]

s mama

Whine away, that's what we're here for.

[~ATenthMuse~]

Whine away... You've got every right to.

[amaayeh]

I'm so sorry! Hopefully it is just one of those 'things' and he will come soon. I have a friend who was closed tight at her appointment one day and gave birth naturally the next. It can happen!

[Jennisee]

[celestialdreamer]

You really will have a baby soon! But I truly understand that "soon" is relative at this point.

[~NewMa~]

Originally Posted by amaayeh

I have a friend who was closed tight at her appointment one day and gave birth naturally the next. It can happen!

Oh, thank you!!! I needed to be reminded that these things do happen!
Maybe her playing around with my cervix so roughly will stimulate something:

[chely7425]

s whine all you want!!

[GardenStream]

I'm just letting you know you aren't alone and I know how you feel. I really don't want to have the talk next week about what we need to do since baby isn't coming on his own. It's so hard to see the birth you dreamed of slipping away...

It's so hard to stay positive, but I think it's about all we can do right now.

[~NewMa~]

Originally Posted by atobols

I'm just letting you know you aren't alone and I know how you feel. I really don't want to have the talk next week about what we need to do since baby isn't coming on his own. It's so hard to see the birth you dreamed of slipping away...

Thank you!!!
I'm not giving up hope yet. Like you said, all we can do is keep a positive attitude.
It's just so disappointing to even think about, ya know!

Thank you mommies for understanding

[prairieo]

new ma, I just want to encourage you to not wait around for your perfect birth to happen, but to make it happen. Focus on your cervix opening, focus your energy on opening. Concentrating on things going badly will not assist you at this time. I know it's hard, and believe me, I can relate, but I just want to support you in making your birth happen the way you want it to. There's lots you can do towards that end. Good luck!

[treehuggermama]

Have you tried EPO?

You have every right to whine hugs to you.

[Datura]

Well, if he's little then he needs to bake a bit. It's better to wait a while longer and have a baby who is prepared for life on the outside than one who isn't. And cervices can open really quickly when they're ready.



It is insanely frustrating, though. Hang in there, mama!

[ltk]

try acupuncture. I was 2 cm and 70% effaced when I got it and the next morning ALL of my plug came out...so it's def. loosening up! and EPO might be good too.

Those of us who have passed our due date now totally understand and we have to stay focused on what we want. block all energy, stay mindful of baby. I told my husband "no more business, it's all about the baby now" field anything stressful like a kung fu fighter!

oh, and just to let you know w/ my first pg I was 0 dilated and the got me to 1, within 9 hours I was in active labor....it can happen.