I just had to share, because i feel like i've really turned a major corner. i've really had such a mental block about this pregnancy from the beginning, and have been pretty much in denial about it the whole time. mostly when i thought about having this baby i was just terrified - not about the birth, but about having a 3rd child, and being able to keep my sanity.
but today i feel like i'm truly excited and ready to have this baby! two things have happened that have really helped me take that step. The first is that my visits to the chiro and my inversions and visualizations have paid off and baby is now anterior, and has been for almost a week! and the chiro told me today that my sacrum and pelvis have never been in a better position for birth than they were after my adjustment today
i also saw my m/w today (after 3 cancelled appointments due to other births) and i discussed with her what (if anything) to do with the cord after baby is born. i've been contemplating a lotus birth this entire pregnancy, but some of the logistics with two kids and a hubby going right back to work were making me feel like it might not be the best option for me. but i knew i wanted to wait at least a few hours after the birth to cut the cord, though that didn't feel exactly right either. well, my m/w learned of a ritual of cauterizing the cord with candles when she was volunteering after the tsunami a few years ago and shared some pictures with me. it's a lovely, gentle ritual where the cord is severed using candles and a special box. i feel like this is the perfect compromise for me! my DH and i make our own candles, and have always enjoyed candle rituals. and it seems so much more mindful and gentle than just simply cutting it, as it takes 5-10 minutes to go through the process. i am sooooo excited about doing this! and it's like having this to look forward to has helped me get over some of the fears i was holding onto and helping me to embrace becoming a mama again. i cried with relief earlier and apologized to the baby that it's taken me so long to come around. it was like a huge burden from my shoulders has been lifted!
sorry this was so long - just had to share with someone!
but today i feel like i'm truly excited and ready to have this baby! two things have happened that have really helped me take that step. The first is that my visits to the chiro and my inversions and visualizations have paid off and baby is now anterior, and has been for almost a week! and the chiro told me today that my sacrum and pelvis have never been in a better position for birth than they were after my adjustment today
i also saw my m/w today (after 3 cancelled appointments due to other births) and i discussed with her what (if anything) to do with the cord after baby is born. i've been contemplating a lotus birth this entire pregnancy, but some of the logistics with two kids and a hubby going right back to work were making me feel like it might not be the best option for me. but i knew i wanted to wait at least a few hours after the birth to cut the cord, though that didn't feel exactly right either. well, my m/w learned of a ritual of cauterizing the cord with candles when she was volunteering after the tsunami a few years ago and shared some pictures with me. it's a lovely, gentle ritual where the cord is severed using candles and a special box. i feel like this is the perfect compromise for me! my DH and i make our own candles, and have always enjoyed candle rituals. and it seems so much more mindful and gentle than just simply cutting it, as it takes 5-10 minutes to go through the process. i am sooooo excited about doing this! and it's like having this to look forward to has helped me get over some of the fears i was holding onto and helping me to embrace becoming a mama again. i cried with relief earlier and apologized to the baby that it's taken me so long to come around. it was like a huge burden from my shoulders has been lifted!
sorry this was so long - just had to share with someone!
