Thank you again Sereph! I'm trying to keep my spirts up about everything, but man its hard! Just talking to the LC when I went in on day 3 about how hungry Orion was and how my milk hadn't come in made me want to cry. That morning Dh was holding the baby while I bawled in the tub. Being able to breastfeed has an importance to me that is beyond just the normal reasons of why a mother should breastfeed a child. Its like I want to validate that my body can do *something* right, and I can at least be able to follow my own choices in how I feed my child.
Thank you for the offer Laura, Dh and I will think about it
And its ok, I didn't realize I had met you at the picnic until Lauren said so either :LOL
bfbabygirl, I was told what the drugs would do to me *during* labor, but they never went into any effects it would have on the baby. And he has never been too sleepy to nurse from the drugs (thank goodness, it would have only made a bad situation worse), he just gets full from formula for much longer than breastmilk. Now that isn't such a problem since Lauren is being so wonderful and pumping for us. I didn't *want* the drugs, I did everything I could to avoid them, I even consulted with my midwives before I let them induce me. But when you're faced with doctors telling you that you're going to have seizures or possibly a stroke, its terribly hard to say 'no', especially when I didn't have the time or resources at hand to do research before making a decision about how much of a chance I had for a seizure/stroke to occur. But I made a choice during my labor to allow the mag sulfate and pitocin because of the seriousness of the situation (or at least the seriousness of the situation as it was presented to me at the time).
I have spoken to the LC about the medications and how they are affecting me (because as I said, it does not seem to me that ds has been affected by them. He nurses very well, and now that his feedings are breastmilk, wakes frequently to nurse) and she told me what I said earlier. That on the outside it could take 10-12 days for my milk to come in, and that its not likely to come in after that (and boy as I come closer to that 'deadline' it worries me more and more.. 8 days today... not of course like its set in stone that it wouldn't come after that, but just remembering what she said)...
|YOu already know the dismal stats for moms supplementing with formula prior to newborns being a month old - hopefully this will not include you and your baby! But it is critical to be off formula asap.
That comment was not very helpful. And I wonder if the "stats" are seperating moms who just bottle feed their babies for convience/to let dads feed/ect from moms who are using SNS or other systems and doing everything under their power to breastfeed?
I KNOW that the formula isn't 'helping' any. But I also KNOW my son **HAS** to have food. A newborn can survive on just colostrum for about a week (or at least I've read that in a few places...). Its 8 days now. He was horribly hungry, horribly upset, and nursing so much I was honest to god delirious for no more than 15 minutes of sleep at a time by day 3. I can't imagine how things would be now at day 8 if I wasn't supplementing! Trust me, the thing I would most LOVE to do is walk the damn can of formula down to the dumpster and POUR it OUT! I can't begin to express how HORRIBLY upset I am that I've had to feed him formula. I'm so happy now that he can get some breastmilk, but still wish that I could provide it for him (the whole want my body to do SOMETHING right thing).
And I've figured out that he's *on the breast* about 9 hours a day. I think that's stimulating me quite a bit. I pump afterwards just to try to get even more stimulation. It is depressing to see just a couple of drops, but I know that it isn't a measure of how much I'm producing.
And thank you Lauren, for the support (& everything else too!). You've been SO wonderful!