first trimester confessions - Page 5

[kimnm]

Better late than never.
I confess that I had some of DH's red wine last week and it tasted sooo good. About 5 lovely sips.
I confess that lately I am not enjoying being pg, I want to be a person who has my flat tummy back and no nausea and boobs that don't hurt yet it has been 10 yrs of ttc and now we are finally pg after lots of money, emotions etc put into getting pg.
I confess that I;m a little afraid of giving birth that I won't be strong enough to do it or something, and we are trying the natural way, no drugs.
I confess that even though I'm almost at 12 weeks, I tell some people that I am just to prove that I am "pregnant enough" to count.
I confess that I still feel like I'm a new initiate in a club that I was denied access to for so long that I often wonder if I truly belong.
Lastly, I confess to poo pooing the prenatals as I am extremely constipated and nauseated and nothing sounds more gross than taking them right now.

[Swandira]

Kim,

I think it's fine that you're not loving the physical experience of being pregnant. It doesn't mean you're not grateful to get to grow your own baby! It's easy enough at first to be happy to be nauseated, exhausted, and always needing to pee, but those uncomfortable sensations far outlast the novelty of being pregnant. You'll still love this baby, if for no other reason than that giving birth makes you stop being pregnant.

As to my confession, I forgot and ate some tuna steak at a cookout recently. It's on the Not Ever, Never while pregnant or nursing list. Oops!

Nealy
Mama to T, 5; L, 2; and EDD 12/20/08