I'm so sorry that some of us are still sick. I ended up in the hospital last Wednesday, and I fear I'll be back at some point this week. I'm not eating at all any more. I'm eating maybe 400-600 calories a day, not even that some days. I'm starving, and it's really this terrifying feeling. I feel like I'm going to lose it at any moment, I'm on the verge of a huge breakdown. I want to eat, I try so hard, but I gag on everything. I think this feeling of extreme hunger is worse than the nausea, and the nausea is just making it worse. I'm having a giant pity party, I know. I deserve it. I just don't feel like I can deal with my kids any more, do anything at all. We've been on the couch all day watching cartoons. I can't even sleep because I'm so hungry. They gave me pheneran through an IV at the hospital on Wednesday, and I slept more than I've slept in a long time.
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5/13/08 at 4:54pm