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post #1 of 10
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I hope no one minds if I start this thread! When I go to the main pg after a loss forum, there are all these mamas that are so way far along, and I just keep feeling.. ah, that might not be me! And I have noticed that there are many women in this forum who have had previous losses, so...

How are you getting through the 1st tri? I am so much more anxious than with either of my two other pregnancies (2nd was a 12-wk m/c), so I'd love to hear strategies.

I am only 4w5d right now, and not having too many symptoms--a little queasiness here and there, and the regular 30% temporary iq loss that I get with every pregnancy (it's making work so much more challenging!). I find myself wishing so much for more nausea, just to feel more pg--we'll see if that happens in a week or two. Each week feels sooo long! I have never really gotten much nausea, though, so I'm not expecting much in that department, though I may be surprised, I know!

I also am a tp-checker, though it doesn't really make sense: my first pg, I spotted from weeks 6-9 pretty regularly (more than daily), and it was a totally healthy pg. On the 2nd, I didn't spot at all until 12 weeks exactly, when I m/c'd (within a couple of hours of starting...) And this time I'm on progesterone, which has kept me from bleeding every cycle I've taken it until 3 days after I stop the med, so it's pretty unlikely that I will see anything significant, but still I check....

How's everyone doing??
post #2 of 10
I miscarried about two years ago now..and this is the first time I've got a BFP since. I'm terrified to be honest. I was 6w4d that time, and right now I'm about 6w1d. Part of me is just waiting for the other foot to drop, you know?

That was another life though, and another relationship. I don't really "feel" pregnant this time - where as last time I felt like crap the entire time. It didn't feel "right". I have to grab or jiggle my boobs every once in awhile to make them hurt and remind myself I'm actually still pregnant, and just not eating too much fast food! I just wish I had more symptoms - I'd even welcome morning sickness honestly!

Fear of m/c again makes me worry about finding doctors and thinking about birth plans...I'm afraid of jinxing everything...
post #3 of 10
Well I have had 2 babies then lost 2 babies and have had another baby since the loses and I still can't relax. I too am on progesterone and every time I wipe I too look for blood. The first thing I told my midwife after my last baby came out was "I didn't really think she was going to come". what you're feeling is normal :
post #4 of 10
Sadly, I can join this group & we may see it grow fast.
I have had 2 m/c both at or around 12 weeks. The last one was 1-11-07.
I keep bouncing back and forth between joy & fear.
I too am waiting for the vomitting. For me it will be a good sign. I never threw up w/ both of the babies I lost....SO vommit=
I'm only at 3w6d...very early.
I'm sorry we are all a part of a club no one wants to join, but I am very thankful that we will have each other to support & understand what each other is going through.
I have not even told DH yet. I"m just plain scared. I am working on just going w/ the Joy!!! (that's what I want) all the joy. I feel I am being robbed of present joy because of past losses...sigh....

Thank you for starting the thread
post #5 of 10
Thanks for this thread! I miscarried in January and was really surprised to get pregnant again so fast. I am currently about 6.5 weeks, and haven't felt hardly any pregnancy symptoms. Yesterday I was so happy to feel a bit nauseated and dizzy, but then this morning I started spotting and had very mild cramps all day. I have a feeling this is the beginning of the end, but I want to stay optimistic. With my miscarriage I didn't see the OB until I was about 9 weeks, and at that time he saw that I had a blighted ovum that measured about 5 weeks. I'm worried that I'm miscarrying but my body won't be fully through it for some weeks now.
post #6 of 10
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Originally Posted by simcon View Post
I hope no one minds if I start this thread! When I go to the main pg after a loss forum, there are all these mamas that are so way far along, and I just keep feeling.. ah, that might not be me! And I have noticed that there are many women in this forum who have had previous losses, so...
ITA!!! I understand that some of those mamas have had losses later in their pg, but the majority of us have had first trimester losses and they just seem to give the "there, there, you will get through this approach".

So I don't post there that often.

I feel stuck between serveral different worlds because, well, look at my siggy, this is my 5th pregnancy within the span of a year. So, I should be posting in the PAL thread...but I hope to have a UC so I think that I should be posting over there....but this is my DDC so I should be posting here but not many understand the mixed emotions that one goes through after a loss.

I obsessively check the TP and worry, am I cramping enough, am I cramping too little, are my breasts sore enough, etc. etc, etc....
post #7 of 10
count me in.
I am in a similar situation as 3 for me. I had 2 babies then m/c 2 babies (12.5wks and 6wks) then had a baby and now pregnant again.
I thought I would be better this time since having my son but I am just different. Not freaking out as much but that innocence before my losses is gone and will never be replaced. I know that anything can happen at any time and that is just the way it is. I try to just appreciate the wonderful life growing within me and know that it is with me today and to enjoy that and not worry about tomorrow or the what if's. it is next to impossible to wipe w/out checking for blood. that is just a knee jerk reaction.
Thanks for starting this thread.
post #8 of 10
I had a 12 wk miscarriage and have since had two babies... It gets a little better each pregnancy, I guess. I get a little less stressed. Which is why I'm sitting around waiting for the other shoe to drop. I don't feel sick, my boobs don't hurt, I'm not extra tired. I've been sick with a bad cold, that's the only way in which I feel different.
post #9 of 10
I'm here too. Our loss was also over two years ago, and we've since battled infertility. This babe is the result of donor sperm, in fact. It all feels so tenuous, and I am also a compulsive tp checker. I'm wildly excited one second, and sucking back the Rescue Remedy the next (is rescue remedy safe in pregnancy?!?!) in an attempt to keep the anxiety at bay, because I worry about being worried!
I had myself convinced that I would never conceive, never mind birth a babe, and this all feels like a dream. I'm just afraid it's going to turn into a nightmare. I'm trying really, really hard to just enjoy this pregnancy. What will happen, will happen, and there's not much to be done about it either way. Easy to say though, hey?

At what point do you get to relax?
post #10 of 10
I miscarried over a year ago. This was cycle 8 for us since the m/c completed and I started ovulating again. I'm 4weeks today. So far I'm pretty calm, but I really thought I'd be freaking out. Not a lot of symptoms so far and I refuse to look forward to puking (well, today at least).

I'm excited. Scared, but trying to enjoy every last minute no longer how long it lasts. I'm grateful to have finally got this far. Trying to remember that.
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