OMG this is testing my patience. Days of prodromal labor and it always fizzles out. I seriously am going to go crazy at some point. I've had acupuncture, I've dealt with every emotional "block" I can think of, I've walked and gone swimming. I just don't know what else to do. I have times when I'm happy and feel like progress is being made and then I have times like right now when I feel like the whole world can go to hell and this baby is never going to come. UGH! Today is 41+2
OK vent over. COME OUT!
UPDATE 1:
I'm 41+6 today (Monday) and a repeat C-section is scheduled for Wednesday. I am devastated at the potential loss of my HBAC.
I've had signs of labor off and on for the past few weeks but so far my body just hasn't gone into labor. I'm so sad and no one in my family really understands. I once felt so connected to this baby in my tummy and now I feel quite detached from the process and the baby. I've done nothing but cry since Friday. We only planned to have two children, so unless I go into labor before Wednesday, I will never actually give birth to a child. It just wasn't supposed to be this way...I really thought I would at least have the opportunity to try for a VBAC. I knew that there was a possibility of transfer and repeat C-section, but at least I would have had a chance. And it just doesn't feel fair! I did everything "right" this time...midwife, good nutrition, exercise, hypnobabies, etc etc. I feel like I wasted a sh!tload of money, too. Midwife, childbirth education, homebirth supplies, the list goes on. And now we're going to have to pay for a C-section on top of it all. I haven't told my 4yo DS yet because I cry everytime I talk about it. He was very excited about the waterbirth and having the midwives come to our house. Thanks for letting me vent. Not a happy day here
Update 2:
At 4:20am Wednesday, my water broke
I had a very intense 7 hour labor and birthed my VBAC baby girl AT HOME IN THE WATER!!! with only moments to spare before the scheduled c-section!!!!!!! I called and left a message with my Dr's answering service 40 minutes before I was to arrive that I would not be coming in. We are absolutely thrilled, relieved, exhausted, etc. My mom and son were there to see her be born which was just amazing. She was born with her hand behind her back and had shoulder dystocia which was quite painful and intense, but she is otherwise perfect! I am bruised and have some skid marks, but no tears. Today was 42+1 and her placenta was definitely done, but she seems so tiny at 8lbs 5oz. Her name is Mollie Annabel and she was born at 11:27am. Whew! What a roller coaster of emotions the past few days have been!
OK vent over. COME OUT!
UPDATE 1:
I'm 41+6 today (Monday) and a repeat C-section is scheduled for Wednesday. I am devastated at the potential loss of my HBAC.
I've had signs of labor off and on for the past few weeks but so far my body just hasn't gone into labor. I'm so sad and no one in my family really understands. I once felt so connected to this baby in my tummy and now I feel quite detached from the process and the baby. I've done nothing but cry since Friday. We only planned to have two children, so unless I go into labor before Wednesday, I will never actually give birth to a child. It just wasn't supposed to be this way...I really thought I would at least have the opportunity to try for a VBAC. I knew that there was a possibility of transfer and repeat C-section, but at least I would have had a chance. And it just doesn't feel fair! I did everything "right" this time...midwife, good nutrition, exercise, hypnobabies, etc etc. I feel like I wasted a sh!tload of money, too. Midwife, childbirth education, homebirth supplies, the list goes on. And now we're going to have to pay for a C-section on top of it all. I haven't told my 4yo DS yet because I cry everytime I talk about it. He was very excited about the waterbirth and having the midwives come to our house. Thanks for letting me vent. Not a happy day here Update 2:
At 4:20am Wednesday, my water broke
I had a very intense 7 hour labor and birthed my VBAC baby girl AT HOME IN THE WATER!!! with only moments to spare before the scheduled c-section!!!!!!! I called and left a message with my Dr's answering service 40 minutes before I was to arrive that I would not be coming in. We are absolutely thrilled, relieved, exhausted, etc. My mom and son were there to see her be born which was just amazing. She was born with her hand behind her back and had shoulder dystocia which was quite painful and intense, but she is otherwise perfect! I am bruised and have some skid marks, but no tears. Today was 42+1 and her placenta was definitely done, but she seems so tiny at 8lbs 5oz. Her name is Mollie Annabel and she was born at 11:27am. Whew! What a roller coaster of emotions the past few days have been!
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: I spent the last three days before my DD1's birth just crying and rocking.
I'm so sorry. I really hope you go into labor soon.
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