Why I literally NEED this baby to come. I'm sad tonight.

[mkmama]

i'm posting again. I hope you that see my posts all the time about my situation aren't sick of me. I need to vent though.

I feel like crying. Ok i did cry. My mom came April 8 from the USA because she missed DS birth by 7 minutes (straight from the airport) and I NEED her here. So she didn't want to miss this birth and came way early.
(EDD April 22, which is my DS' #2 BDAY!)

It is already April 18 and no signs except she turned into a better position last night and PAINLESS BH contractions.

I am feeling really down. I feel like this is never going to happen and if I end up being wrong that this baby is going to come this weekend/early next week...then my mom will have less than a week with me to help with my 2 year old DS.

I'm really anxious about the whole thing. I can't sleep at night b/c I pray that labor will begin. DH is not being a help with that if ya know what i mean. He was actually mocking me and really hurt my feelings tonight. Another reason I'm sad and angry. Say i go into labor...i don't want to bring this LO into a huge fight. This would be a happy time if he wasn't being such a butt.

My mom can't stay forever, she has things she HAS to go back to the USA for. What if she misses this birth too? She leaves May 3.

The second reason i literally NEED this baby to come is i have a ton of paperwork to sort out so that she can move to the US with us...at this point she'll be 7 weeks old, and every week that passes is a week that the paperwork (birth certificate, plane ticket and passport) gets put on hold. I'm getting nervous...we bought our plane tickets for June 15 and I have a lot of moving to do and relationship to establish with her and for DS.

i'm really sad tonight.

[amaayeh]

I'm sorry. I hope she hears you and comes soon!

[Goddess3_2005]

Aww I totally feel you. My mom couldn't come and my MIL who's like a second mom has come and gone.

Its ok mama, theres a full moon coming and all of us waiting on our over due babies will finally get to meet them.

[paphia]

I'm not sick of hearing you vent! I'm sorry your mom is on a deadline for when she can be with you. It must be adding a lot of stress. But at the same time, it must be really nice to have a mom you'd want at your birth. I was totally stressed by my mom's presence in the week before I had dd and I'd already told her she wasn't welcome during labor and delivery. Try not to worry too much, the universe usually has a way of working itself out.

[Chinese Pistache]

I'm sorry

[ChristyH]

I hope she comes out for you soon

[kjoy2]

[Incubator]

Oh... sweetie, we don't get tired of your venting! That's what we're here for! I hope I'm not only speaking for myself when I say we love you, and we're happy to listen to anything you might need to say. Goodness knows I come on and complain enough.

I hope your baby comes soon so you can enjoy a wonderful babymoon with your mother.

[Jennisee]

[mkmama]

Thank you everyone...i'd like to say my tears from the support of you all is emotional and hormonal and a labor sign...but i know its just genuine thankfulness for you all.

I had such a horrible birth experience with DS that took me 2 years to grieve and DH is not allowed until the birth part...my mom is the most wonderful person I know, took doula classes and everything...i NEED her here!!!!

Its almost 3am and i haven't gone to bed yet. so much on my mind. i need to go try and lay down.

:

Love to you all.

[porenn]

Oh- I'm sorry you're sad tonight- thinking about not having your support system around when you most need it is aweful! i hope that babe comes soon so that you and the babe and your mom can have tons of time together......

[krizzanne]

oh, mkmama, It is hard to hear you be so sad when you are such a source of support and encouragement for everyone else in the ddc!

Hang in there, your baby knows when it's ready, and your due date is still a couple days away, (s)he will come, and it's going to be great!

[treehuggermama]

Hugs to you!!

[pure]

Hugs mkmama! I was in your DDC with Elliot too. My little boy was born two days before my daughters 2nd birthday.

I know how you feel. My mom was here for my last birth. She was so helpful that time, but my parents have moved to Mexico. They still haven't been here yet to meet him. My inlaws came a week before the birth, then left for a few days and when we called them back because I was in labour and needed someone to care for our daughter they ended up missing the birth by about 20 minutes. (It worked out fine though).

I hope your baby comes soon.

[mkmama]

Originally Posted by krizzanne

oh, mkmama, It is hard to hear you be so sad when you are such a source of support and encouragement for everyone else in the ddc!

Hang in there, your baby knows when it's ready, and your due date is still a couple days away, (s)he will come, and it's going to be great!

Everyone has been so sweet and understanding....and this particulary made me smile and feel so warmed inside.

I haven't been anxious about the future in a long time. I love the verse in Proverbs 31 that says "Stength and Dignity are her clothing and she smiles at the future."

USUALLY I am pretty trusting and have faith that God always works things out and therefore i don't worry about tomorrow. But my anxiety has won this round, and its been a long time since that's happened. i'm praying for peace and working on surrendering the whole situation and just trusting.

On another note, i got my wish, i feel like crap. I feel nauseated but exhausted. I didn't get to sleep until about 3am and was up at 7am and no nap today. blech. but yay too cuz if i feel like crap maybe SOMETHING will happen!

[kjoy2]

I hope you get more of what you are wishing for today! Come on, baby!

Sorry to hear you didn't get good sleep last night, either. It's okay for you to express your frustrations on this board, and in general. We all reach the near-breaking point now and again and need gentle support and reminders of faith to get back on our feet.

I second Krizzanne's sentiments. I truly enjoy reading your posts in this DDC because your responses always seem so genuine and heartfelt.