i've just about decided to try meds. i don't know what else to do. i went to see my old counselor yesterday who gave me a sort of "plan" to help with my sleep...but i tried the plan last night (stay up as late as i want, till i'm exhausted, but don't take any ativan, and make myself wake up at the same time every morning--idea being i will eventually wear myself out by staying up late and getting up early, and this will help me re-set my sleep schedule and break my difficulties with falling asleep) and it was a disaster. it just made me feel panicky, and i ended up taking half an ativan anyhow 
so i've decided i must have anxiety that's underlying everything, and i probably need to try the freaking zoloft i was presribed by a psychiatrist (different person) in september. i won't do that without talking to her first, but my biggest fear is that the zoloft will just make my insomnia (my major symptom) worse. it's listed as one of the most common side effects, so to me it seems kind of loony to take it when my biggest symptom is insomnia, KWIM?
also, the sexual side effects...ugh. i took lexapro once before DD and i had to wean off and onto wellbutrin because the inability/extreme difficulty of having orgasms made me more anxious than i'd been to begin with...
but the wellbutrin never helped my anxiety, just depression. and since my major issue now is anxiety, and the psychiatrist wanted me to take zoloft..
i just hate this. hate, hate, hate. i'm too anxious to start a drug--it makes me literally nervous to think of the side effects that could occur, or what if my sleep gets worse, etc.

so i've decided i must have anxiety that's underlying everything, and i probably need to try the freaking zoloft i was presribed by a psychiatrist (different person) in september. i won't do that without talking to her first, but my biggest fear is that the zoloft will just make my insomnia (my major symptom) worse. it's listed as one of the most common side effects, so to me it seems kind of loony to take it when my biggest symptom is insomnia, KWIM?
also, the sexual side effects...ugh. i took lexapro once before DD and i had to wean off and onto wellbutrin because the inability/extreme difficulty of having orgasms made me more anxious than i'd been to begin with...
but the wellbutrin never helped my anxiety, just depression. and since my major issue now is anxiety, and the psychiatrist wanted me to take zoloft..
i just hate this. hate, hate, hate. i'm too anxious to start a drug--it makes me literally nervous to think of the side effects that could occur, or what if my sleep gets worse, etc.






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