Bleh

[Intertwined]

Both babies are still breech. I'm 3cm but still VERY posterior (no wonder I can't reach it) so I don't think they're coming out soon. Claire's butt is down, and she didn't feel feet so that's good.

I'm feeling bummed about the breech thing, even though I'm comfortable delivering them that way. Isn't that weird? I think it's because I'm a perfectionist and I don't like not doing it just right. Stupid and out of my control but a totally honest feeling.

I met all the other midwives today. I'm completely overwhelmed! Sheez. I do so hope they come fast and no one but my main MW makes it. Don't get me wrong they are all nice. I just feel like.....I dunno. Like I'm not as "safe" with all of them here analyzing and filtering through their own lenses. I don't know how to explain that.

But we all look fantastic still......

[Molck]

I totally get this. My last few MW appointments have felt disappointing, too, even though they've been just fine. The tiniest things (like measuring small, or comments that I've got several weeks to go) leave me feeling so bummed.

Glad Claire's butt is presenting rather than feet, anyway. You're doing an amazing job growing these twins, and you're going to do an amazing job birthing them, whichever body part comes first .

[Patrick's mummy]

I know what you mean about the other mw's. I have only seen one midwife throughout and then last week (39-41 wks for me) she arranged for 2 different midwives to come to do my antenatal without her - set her straight on that one, but it upset me that she didn't realise that would be a problem. It is too late to integrate the presence and practices of an unknown AFAIC.

Chantel, breech is perfect too - perfect for your babies because they would not present that way otherwise. You know you can birth these babies and how exciting that they will rump, not crown! It's going to be an amazing experience. I can't wait to read the story

[cj'smommy]

Despite being breech, I'm happy to hear you are all doing well!

I can completely understand wanting your MW, you have a connection with her and she knows you, that is huge.

Hang in there mama!

[NatureMama3]

definitely understandable!!

posterior means nothing for delivery. truly. Noah was posterior just hours before delivery.

[Intertwined]

I just had a good conversation with my MW and I feel much better. She sensed that I was feeling sort of overwhelmed and anxious and we talked it out. I love her!

I have this sort of hokey, strange feeling that Claire is protecting Ben by staying breech. I have a really irritable uterus and LOTS of contractions and am already 3cm and soft. But still posterior. Now, if her head was pressing down on my cervix every time I contracted last night (every 10-15 minutes for 6 hours) I think we'd have babies today. Instead, I've got a floating butt down there so much less pressure.

Once she flips, we're going to have babies.

[Nate'sMama]

My doula calls it an excitable uterus, not irritable.
I love that you think she is protecting him - love love love it!

Good luck to your our twin goddess mama! You and your babies can do this!

[Shanana]

You can know that your body and babies are doing what's best, and still be irritated / frustrated / doubtful about it . I'm glad to hear the update, and it sounds like you're feeling better after talking to the mw .