Okay, I delivered 3 1/2 weeks ago and had family in town until this past Saturday. I knew this was coming while I had people in town, but now that they've left it's hitting me like a ton of bricks. I'm so lonely! 
Okay, I'm sort of making light of it right now, but this has been really tough for me. Like, hysterically sobbing every night while I lay in bed. I'm really thinking I need to re-evaluate the people I surround myself with. Only 1 of my co-workers has visited....no calls, no emails, no flowers from the dept. My local mom group has been about the same....2 visitors, 1 other email. Not one neighbor has stopped by, even though I make a point to drop fresh flowers to anybody who's had a baby/been sick/etc. SERIOUSLY?????
I COMPLETELY understand that some people need alone time with the baby and people don't want to impose. HOWEVER, I spent my entire pregnancy making it clear that I WOULD want visitors (because my PP period with DD was so lonely). It was during that period last time that I found my local mom group. I had such high hopes this time because I felt like I had a good, understanding network this time around. Nope.
It's silly that I'm complaining about this. I have a perfect, healthy baby. I have a fantastic 3 year old. I feel good. I'm healthy. But I've spent weeks thinking about how lonely I am and what a pathetic loser I must be. I've been swinging between sadness and anger constantly. Hormones probably aren't helping. Everyone I know who's had babies lately has had people visiting, bringing food, calling. Seriously...what's wrong with me???
And of course I can't talk to anybody about this without putting them on the spot and sounding like a whiney little child (and that would mean that I would have to actually talk to somebody).
Off to cry again....
Okay, I'm sort of making light of it right now, but this has been really tough for me. Like, hysterically sobbing every night while I lay in bed. I'm really thinking I need to re-evaluate the people I surround myself with. Only 1 of my co-workers has visited....no calls, no emails, no flowers from the dept. My local mom group has been about the same....2 visitors, 1 other email. Not one neighbor has stopped by, even though I make a point to drop fresh flowers to anybody who's had a baby/been sick/etc. SERIOUSLY?????
I COMPLETELY understand that some people need alone time with the baby and people don't want to impose. HOWEVER, I spent my entire pregnancy making it clear that I WOULD want visitors (because my PP period with DD was so lonely). It was during that period last time that I found my local mom group. I had such high hopes this time because I felt like I had a good, understanding network this time around. Nope.
It's silly that I'm complaining about this. I have a perfect, healthy baby. I have a fantastic 3 year old. I feel good. I'm healthy. But I've spent weeks thinking about how lonely I am and what a pathetic loser I must be. I've been swinging between sadness and anger constantly. Hormones probably aren't helping. Everyone I know who's had babies lately has had people visiting, bringing food, calling. Seriously...what's wrong with me???
And of course I can't talk to anybody about this without putting them on the spot and sounding like a whiney little child (and that would mean that I would have to actually talk to somebody).
Off to cry again....
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and then head out to the grocery store with my two little wonders, beaming with delight, and glowing like I've never glowed before, only to have an old woman gasp and say "YOU SHOULD BE AT HOME RESTING!" and have the lady checking my purchases back away like I've brought a plague-infested rat to the store with me. OMG is it so hard to believe that a woman (especially one who just had a homebirth) would feel terrific this soon after birth and be DYING to get out and do something, especially now that she can move without feeling like a whale?!
) and it was a little stressful (as in getting things we didn't need like sposies) but nice at the same time.
