I'm SO disappointed in myself that I'm even considering the possibility of myself going "early" to any extent. I really thought I'd mentally prepared myself this time to not even think about labor until starting at or at least very close to my EDD timeframe. This stinks. 
Anyway, I hate thinking about it all the time. DD and I are home most days without a car since DH has been driving it to school (and we're in the boonies so going places withOUT one isn't really a possibility) so of course being here all the time I'm constantly thinking about where I can walk around next, when was the last time I drank RRL tea, I should probably spend some time squatting, I think I need to sit on my exercise ball longer, maybe we'll go for another walk, I think I'll run to the potty and hope to be surprised by some show or something, etc. Blah!
So I've been trying to get out when I can. Today we have the car and I thought about driving te 20 min. to my hometown and letting DD play with my cousin's DD (same age) at the park while they're visiting..kind of a little family get together. The thing is, I'm having a homebirth...well, *I* am planning a UC but no one other than DH and the MW know that...and I just don't want to be around ANY family/friends when labor starts- or I even have a SINGLE sign of it coming ANY time soon- because I don't want them to know!! I don't want people bugging me, I don't want my IL's (who live across the stinkin' road) to be knocking on my door, don't want anyone showing up to "help" with DD thinking they're entitled to be at the birth, don't want anyone complaining that somenoe else was here when THEY weren't, etc. Basically, when I DO go into labor we're not planning on calling anyone unless we HAVE to. (actually we were kinda hoping it goes smooth enough that we can invite them over later and they can meet the new baby having never known it came! It would rock...they'd all pee themselves!)
Anyway, so it kinda puts a damper on going out these days, because I figure nothing will happen until weeks from now, but the "what if's", IF they do happen, could really ruin a lot of my hopes for this birth VERY quickly. ALL of my family lives very close, and like I said, my IL's are a matter of seconds (walking!) away, and they're all kind of invasive (or ready to trod me with guilt if they're "left out"- some of them have already made it clear that they're upset that I don't initially want anyone there, or that we're planning on being very casual about it- that's how I "implied" not calling) so it kinda stinks!
Anyone else in a similar dilemma??
Anyway, I hate thinking about it all the time. DD and I are home most days without a car since DH has been driving it to school (and we're in the boonies so going places withOUT one isn't really a possibility) so of course being here all the time I'm constantly thinking about where I can walk around next, when was the last time I drank RRL tea, I should probably spend some time squatting, I think I need to sit on my exercise ball longer, maybe we'll go for another walk, I think I'll run to the potty and hope to be surprised by some show or something, etc.
Blah!So I've been trying to get out when I can. Today we have the car and I thought about driving te 20 min. to my hometown and letting DD play with my cousin's DD (same age) at the park while they're visiting..kind of a little family get together. The thing is, I'm having a homebirth...well, *I* am planning a UC but no one other than DH and the MW know that...and I just don't want to be around ANY family/friends when labor starts- or I even have a SINGLE sign of it coming ANY time soon- because I don't want them to know!! I don't want people bugging me, I don't want my IL's (who live across the stinkin' road) to be knocking on my door, don't want anyone showing up to "help" with DD thinking they're entitled to be at the birth, don't want anyone complaining that somenoe else was here when THEY weren't, etc. Basically, when I DO go into labor we're not planning on calling anyone unless we HAVE to. (actually we were kinda hoping it goes smooth enough that we can invite them over later and they can meet the new baby having never known it came!
It would rock...they'd all pee themselves!)Anyway, so it kinda puts a damper on going out these days, because I figure nothing will happen until weeks from now, but the "what if's", IF they do happen, could really ruin a lot of my hopes for this birth VERY quickly. ALL of my family lives very close, and like I said, my IL's are a matter of seconds (walking!) away, and they're all kind of invasive (or ready to trod me with guilt if they're "left out"- some of them have already made it clear that they're upset that I don't initially want anyone there, or that we're planning on being very casual about it- that's how I "implied" not calling) so it kinda stinks!
Anyone else in a similar dilemma??
to you. Like you, I told myself from the start to expect the baby after EDD, but it doesn't seem to have tricked my mind. The waiting is hard anyway.
