hey, pregnant people!i had my level 2 ultrasound tuesday and it went GREAT. juicy looks wonderful and *he* is a boy! now comes the difficult job of finding a boy name. i think those are harder than girl names.
i feel very good about how i handled the appointment. i wrote a letter to the perinatologist beforehand outlining my history and telling them that i wanted to hear only information related directly to data gathered from me and juicy, no negative speculation. i was concerned they might not read the letter, but when the dr came in he was holding it in his hand. i asked if he had read it and he said yes. i could tell he had because he stuttered and stammered and didn't know what to say, mainly because if he wasn't going to engage in negative speculation then he had nothing to offer!! i said, 'let's start with the ultrasound. what did you see?'. he said it looked perfectly normal, but then started with bit about how it wasn't conclusive and there was still x% chance of this and that, but i cut him off. i held up my hand and said, 'now, this is what i referred to in my letter when i said i didn't want to review x% chance of this or that. i have read all of this information for myself and don't need to be told again. as you can imagine from my history, what i need more is to maintain a positive and hopeful attitude, which is a great challenge for me under the circumstances.' and amazingly, he shut up! he said, 'well, then what do you need from me? why are you here?' i said, 'because my dr set it up, not because i felt i needed or wanted it. but since i am here i will ask about my risk for a second preterm labor'. he said i had no risk of such above that a normal person would have and that i was not high risk and could return to my regular dr. i thanked him, hugged him, kissed his cheek and got kind of choked up when i said, 'thank you so much for respecting me, and thank you so much for taking the time to read my letter'. he said, 'hey now! if you think you're cracking up that is a legitimate medical condition!'. i couldn't help but laugh. cracking up?? because of a few tears and a broken voice? i don't think this guy has kids and he certainly has never experienced significant loss. he repeated again that if i felt i was losing it at any time, 'cracking up', to call my dr right away. i said i would, and that was it!
and i have pictures!!! you can see juicy here and here and here and mommy here.
write in with updates, people! you've been quiet.
erik and arthur's mommy
41, 23 weeks 1 day via home insemination with known donor
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