Please wake me from this horrible nightmare!!!

[~Mamaterra~]

Four hours ago, I found out that my baby died.

I am devastated and numb. I keep shaking my head telling myself to wake up from this nightmare....I mean, its' got to be a nightmare right....this kinda shit doesn't happen in real life?!?

As I took my shot of heparin this morning, nothing can be done until Friday morning. We have to pray that I don't start to miscarry before then because I could bleed out.

The OB is speechless. He was positive that this little one would be the one. Everything was perfect at the 8 week u/s, I was just measuring 2 days behind. But apparently, this childs' heart stopped beating about 3 days later.

I need a volunteer to take over the spotlight duties and I will be withdrawing from the bead swap.

I don't know what to say anymore....it just doesn't seem to matter.

Sorry.

[Ruthla]

I'm so sorry.

[mamavegan]

I'm so sorry, mama.

[MujerMamaMismo]

Oh Mamaterra - I'm so so sorry
I have no words for the devastation you must be feeling. Love and healing vibes aplenty for you :

[Jannah6]

I'm so so sorry

[Luv2bemommy]

Oh no honey I'm so so very sorry.

[namistenicole]

Oh my god mamaterra. You are incredibly brave to continue on in your love and desire to have another baby after such loss. I had no idea of your story until now. You have been such a shining light in this DDC. I wish you peace and love tonight.

[quantumleap]

Oh, Mamaterra! I'm so, so sorry.

You are such a supportive, encouraging and positive force on here, and it just breaks my heart that we can't do anything for you right now.

Sending you much healing, love and support.

If my computer allowed candle smileys, there would be one here for your sweet babe.

(I will take over the spotlight thread, don't worry about that particular thing)

Much love to you,
Katia

[ananas]

I am so sorry.

[Sage_SS]

I am sick with this pain, this hurt, this totally feeling of uselessness. I wish I could do something, say something that would lift your hurt from your heart and the questions from your soul.
My words are disgustingly inadequate, I'm apalled and crushed by this.

I'm here for you, for whatever you want. Anytime.

[AngelBee]

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[JenInMpls]

Yes, what a nightmare. I wish I could wake you. Alas, all I can offer are my heartfelt condolences and wishes for strength and gentleness to yourself. Take care.

[heatherh]

I'm so, so sorry. Thinking of you and wishing you peace and healing.

[terrainthailand]

I'm sorry too. The words seem so useless but they are all I have. I'm sorry.

[rstump]

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[Starfish11]

I don't have anything to say that would adequately express how sorry I am and how much I wish that it was just a nightmare. I'm holding you and your family in the light.

[Genesis]

I'm very sorry for your loss.

[odenata]

I'm so sorry.

[Momtwice]

I'm sorry for your loss.

((HUGS))

[avivaelona]

mamaterra

for this little one, tears for you.