Yup. That's me. Still here. Holding down what's left of May to claim for our longer cookin babes! Either I found some Zen, or that burrito I just ate had an extra herb in it.
Really, I just got back from my mw appt. I was, I'll admit half hoping...okay fine more than half hoping that I'd come home with some cohosh and be starting labor due to my stupid BP. But lo and behold!!! My bp was 122/80...the lowest yet this pregnancy. wow. So the "panic" button was not pushed, we continue one more week.
The sweet part was getting to feel my baby. The mw helped me identify parts thru my tummy which has been hard due to water retention, and just not being sure. I felt his feet ladies...his little tiny feet. He was flexing his ankles and wiggling them, and I teared up. Then she slid my hand and I felt his knee bent(which I had been thinking was butt), and his thigh. His little but was tucked way under, but I felt his back. I felt way down low...little shoulders and his noggin, not quite engaged. It was so awesome of her to take the time to let me find those parts.
I consented to another check, partly from excitement, and I admit I got down right curious. I can't believe I am consenting this time, but it just felt okay and totally in the moment. It wasn't a routine check, or even really necessary-but since I can not seem to find anything up there, and was so curious I let her. There was a little more progress, but nothing major. She asked if it was okay and I let her "stir things up" and now I feel a little crampy, but I'm okay if nothing comes of it.
I'm just going to go one more day. And tomorrow will come when it comes and I'll go from there. She offered to have her apprentice who is a specialist in mayan belly massage something or other give me a massage and the mw will pay for it and add it to my bill. She says it's probably just what I need to get rid of my claustrophobic feelings and make it til the babe picks his own due date. DH doesn't want to get me excited but he thinks it will be soon. He says he can just tell by how I act and he himself has had a burst of energy.
I guess I better write that final paper as it seems I will be going to my class tomorrow after all lol...talk about procrastination.
So...long story short. I'm just holding down the fort. At least for today. I got room on the couch if anyone wants to join me. Lets find our Zen together
Really, I just got back from my mw appt. I was, I'll admit half hoping...okay fine more than half hoping that I'd come home with some cohosh and be starting labor due to my stupid BP. But lo and behold!!! My bp was 122/80...the lowest yet this pregnancy. wow. So the "panic" button was not pushed, we continue one more week.
The sweet part was getting to feel my baby. The mw helped me identify parts thru my tummy which has been hard due to water retention, and just not being sure. I felt his feet ladies...his little tiny feet. He was flexing his ankles and wiggling them, and I teared up. Then she slid my hand and I felt his knee bent(which I had been thinking was butt), and his thigh. His little but was tucked way under, but I felt his back. I felt way down low...little shoulders and his noggin, not quite engaged. It was so awesome of her to take the time to let me find those parts.
I consented to another check, partly from excitement, and I admit I got down right curious. I can't believe I am consenting this time, but it just felt okay and totally in the moment. It wasn't a routine check, or even really necessary-but since I can not seem to find anything up there, and was so curious I let her. There was a little more progress, but nothing major. She asked if it was okay and I let her "stir things up" and now I feel a little crampy, but I'm okay if nothing comes of it.
I'm just going to go one more day. And tomorrow will come when it comes and I'll go from there. She offered to have her apprentice who is a specialist in mayan belly massage something or other give me a massage and the mw will pay for it and add it to my bill. She says it's probably just what I need to get rid of my claustrophobic feelings and make it til the babe picks his own due date. DH doesn't want to get me excited but he thinks it will be soon. He says he can just tell by how I act and he himself has had a burst of energy.
I guess I better write that final paper as it seems I will be going to my class tomorrow after all lol...talk about procrastination.
So...long story short. I'm just holding down the fort. At least for today. I got room on the couch if anyone wants to join me. Lets find our Zen together
nup, hes happy sleeping in where he is, and nothing is going to change his mind.
I'm getting so impatient and frustrated now that nothing (not even pre-labor) is going on.
I think about that and it makes me cry again.
) between zen and come on out bugger! and oh well, I'll be pregnant forever... 
