I am posting because I need to make sure I am making the best decision. I am a married mom with 2 beautiful kids....10 and 7.Just found out yesterday that I am pregnant. I am 40 and hub is 49 1/2.I think I am around 6 weeks but other than my nipples being sore....don't 'feel ' pregnant yet. I am seriously contemplating a termination next week because we are totally happy with 2,they are getting older...we feel like we have 'been there,done that'. I never look at a baby or toddler and feel like 'i need another'. Also,our finances are in the dumps....my hub doesnt have a job...I was actually beginning to search for something to help make ends meet...our self pay health insurance doesnt cover pregnancy....I would have to pay over $5K or more....to have a child or go to a 'clinic' under medicaid! I feel so badly about even thinking about a termination because my first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 16 weeks and it was devistating....I hated people who electively terminated a pregnancy because they didnt want one or it wasnt the right time. How dare they! So now here I am worried and feeling horrible that I might do that. I am also worried about being older and possibly having something wrong with the baby. If I got tested for down syndrome I think I would terminate then. My hub and I also talked about 'getting fixed' but of course that cost alot of money and wasnt covered by insurance. I also thought that what if I won lotto this week...and the finance thing wasnt an issue....then I think I would go ahead with the pregnancy. My issues are: if I terminate, then i may regret it,or feel that God will punish me for taking away a life,I will feel guilty because I have friends my age who have been trying for years and would be thrilled if it were them. if i have the child, then i worry about the health of baby, medicaid, clinic visits....( a pride thing),our finances and the sacrifice of starting all over again at my age.Please do not judge me, I would just like advice. Thank you.
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5/23/08 at 9:42am