Originally Posted by Oriole
Is there anything that you have done as a teenager that you would never repeat now as an adult?
My biggest teenage regret was leaving thailand to go back to high school in canada. I was in recovery from an eating disorder that I'd had all my teen years, and convinced my parents to let me leave school temporarily to volunteer for a month in Thailand... they thought at that time that I was pretty much over my eating disorder, but it was very much still alive. I remember visiting the bathroom several times in the airplane on the way over there
Very Jane Fonda of me, eh
Going to thailand and volunteering was the best thing I could have done and for me, better than my years of therapy. The entire time I was there I ate healthy and rarely thought of food, weight or any of those issues. My confidence in myself really strengthened and it really helped me find myself again as a person seperate from eating disorders. Anyway, my biggest regret was leaving too soon. I really did NOT want to leave, in fact I wanted to stay there for a year. I cried when I left, but I felt I had no choice but to go back and finish high school, as I only had one semester left and I was already a year and a half behind due to dropping out to rehab from my eating disorder. Now I know better, and feel it would have been fine to put off high school even longer, or even not finish it if I didnt want to.
I really think if I could have stayed there longer I would have developed more strength in myself and it would have done me a helluva lot better than high school did. I relapsed when I got home
Several months after being home, i got pregnant. So, while that was technically the best thing to ever happen to me... and I haven't had an eating issues since then... now that I have a baby its going to be a while before I can do that sort of thing again, I always think back on it fondly and wonder what would have become of me if I stayed longer. Of course, everything happens for a reason though.
I made tons, tons, tons of other mistakes and negative judgements as a teen but I mostly feel they all shaped me into who I am today and while they hurt at the time, I'm stronger for it today in some ways (still recovering in other ways)... that even includes getting arrested, which turned into a positive thing for me believe it or not. I mostly regret the thailand thing because I felt at the time like I had to live up to society's expectations for me, and staying in thailand wasn't it. I wish I would have listened to and trusted myself.