The JUNE Infertility One Thread - Page 2

[biomama]

Gillian, congratulations!!!!! I'm so happy for you. What great news.

I had my RE appt yesterday. They want to do an HSG, but we are going to wait one more cycle until I have insurance coverage for it. So it's another clomid/hCG IUI cycle for us. I really hope it works and I don't need the HSG.

They also said if the HSG is normal, the next steps would be injectables. sigh.

Maeve, I'm sorry about the embryos. I'm sure the ones they transferred are doing well though!

Kim, I am amazed at how strong you are during this ordeal. I really wish you and your DH the best. Good luck in the TWW!!

fierrbugg,

Aly, I'll be thinking about you as you're starting your cycle! I'm glad you have answers now, and I hope that means it's easier to solve the problem. Good luck!!!

How's everyone else doing today?

[Aly22681]

Gillian : CONGRATS!!! :

[willthiswork]

Congratulations Gillian! Added bonus of not having to load the truck too!

Biomama, good luck with the IUI. Injectibles aren't too bad though, not if its the puregon pen anyway!

[songbird45]

gillian, congratulations! it's been a long wait for you. I'll be sending sticky baby thoughts your way.

me: I had a monitoring appointment this morning. My lining is at 8mm and I seem to have a dominant follicle on the right ovary at 11-12 mm. The bloodwork will come back this afternoon so I'll find out what my estradiol levels are like, but just based on ultrasound they think I'll probably ovulate sometime next week. They've told me to take OPK's and bd at least every other day. So - I think that means I'm responding to the Femara! Yay!

Does anyone know anything about a postcoital test? The Internet seems to think that they're unnecessary and don't really add any information, but my dr. seems to want to do one.

[barose]

Congrats Gillian!

[EastbayK]

Updated to here

Congratulations Gillian! HH9M!! I'm sooooo happy to move you to the graduates list.

Everyone have a great weekend!

Kim

[crazyrunningmama]

Originally Posted by willthiswork

Hi

I'm ok. I'm off work til next Monday so I'm able to relax and do nothing!! I got some bad news today though, I rang the clinic and asked about the two extra embryos that they had kept out for the transfer and were waiting to freeze. They didn't make it which worries me about the two they did put in. I know that they put back the higher quality ones but I don't feel any different apart from sore boobs and tiredness but I think that's the progesterone. I'm going into my second week tomorrow but I think I know what the result is going to be.

I'm sorry to hear that none of your embryos made it for freezing. I have heard a lot of evidence that they do better on the inside than in an artificial environment, and if they put the best grade ones in for you, things are far from hopeless. Good luck to you and keep on taking care of yourself!!

[Everrgreen]

Thank you so much everyone for all the well wishes and sticky vibes.

Originally Posted by willthiswork

Congratulations Gillian! Added bonus of not having to load the truck too!

This was an awesome bonus!

[baturay]

Gillian - congratulations!!!!

EastbayK - I am just reading about your husband's cancer treatment and burns for the first time and though I don't know the history, I just really wanted to send you a hug and wish you both the best.

[willthiswork]

I think I'm out of the running I've been getting cramps today and yesterday. Oh well, Iw as stupid to think it would work.

[biomama]

Originally Posted by willthiswork

I think I'm out of the running I've been getting cramps today and yesterday. Oh well, Iw as stupid to think it would work.

Oh no! I'm so sorry. I hope the cramps are implantation and not a sign of AF...

You're not stupid to think it would work; it should work, and it might work.

I've been feeling a lot of negativity lately, like this will never work for us. It's really hard to go through life feeling that way, but it's difficult to keep hoping and feeling positive after so many disappointments. I'm going to try to be more optimistic with this cycle, but I know that after 3 failed IUIs the chances are not good it will work the 4th time.

[poetgirl]

Originally Posted by biomama

Oh no! I'm so sorry. I hope the cramps are implantation and not a sign of AF...

You're not stupid to think it would work; it should work, and it might work.

I've been feeling a lot of negativity lately, like this will never work for us. It's really hard to go through life feeling that way, but it's difficult to keep hoping and feeling positive after so many disappointments. I'm going to try to be more optimistic with this cycle, but I know that after 3 failed IUIs the chances are not good it will work the 4th time.

HUGS Biomama, I understand that loop of negativity and I'm sorry you are going through that right now. It ebbs and flows and when it comes on full-force (esp. exacerbated by say clomid), it's quite overwhelming. I agree too that hope is hard. My analogy is that to keep up the hope you have to dig a hole and use the dirt to build yourself a little hill to stand uplifted on for a time, then inevitably somewhere down the line, the disappointment comes and you fall in the hole next to the shovel. Hope that was not too depressing. The #1 thing keeping me somewhere at peace are these guided visualizations I've been doing every day from anjionline. I love how for a period of time every day, someone else does my mind-chatter for me and it's a loving positive voice.

Maeve, I'm really hoping for you and I agree w/ Biomama, you are not foolish to think this might work. Praying that it does.

I will update to say that after acup, herbs, visualization and energy work (yes it's been a busy week), I went in for my cyst u/s to find the R one (previously at a whopping 5 cm) had burst and was down to 1cm. The OB was shocked, as was I. So I am at CD6 and back on the clomid for one more try with IUI this month.

to all

p.s. Songbird, I asked me RE about pcoit test too and he said "they didn't reall do that any more." ???

[blueRhino]

[QUOTE=poetgirl;
p.s. Songbird, I asked me RE about pcoit test too and he said "they didn't reall do that any more." ???[/QUOTE]

I got some reading from my midwife about a lot of stuff including postcoital test. It says is it not recommended that often because it has limited diagnostic potential and poor predictive value. It goes on to say there is little consensus on what a normal sample should look like, but the treatments aren't very successful anyway. And since a lot of IF treatment bypass the cervix anyway, it usually have no effect on treatment anyway and is just one more test for the woman to go through.

That is my summary...

Interesting, but I personally still feel I want to know what the problem is rather than just try a bunch of treatments.

[BurtsGirl]

Hi everyone. I joined this thread a few months back but we took a 2 month break from TTC so I wasn't very active. We're now back on the band wagon this cycle so may I please be added to the list?

Here's the short version of our situation: TTC #1 since Aug 2007 using frozen donor sperm and doing at-home ICI's then moved to RE assisted IUI's with Femara and a HCG shot. Dealing with low progestrone and a thin lining. Also doing Acupuncture, RRL and Progesterone creme. This cycle will be a natural at-home cycle.

I've also finally joined Resolve. I've attended some local meetings and really enjoyed it. It's been a sanity-saver sometimes. But the joining was bittersweet as I felt like I was finally admitting I was indeed infertile and it wasn't that we didn't have any sperm, it may also be me. So we're pretty hopeful this cycle but we're not sure why. It's so hard to find a balance between hope and realism. You don't want to get your hopes too high but you're not quite read to be completely negative about it all.

I'm not sure what our next step is but we'll probably take July off and continue at home in Aug. If the Aug attemp doesn't work we might take another couple of months off to save up and try injectables next. IVF is a last resort for us and neither of us are ready for that, emotionally or financially. If we do an IVF that will be our last attempt at TTC on our own.

[songbird45]

willthiswork: there's still hope, but I don't blame you if you want to distance yourself emotionally. It's so hard to get your hopes up and then feel them come crashing down.

biomama: I totally hear you on the negativity. I have days (weeks) like that too. I love the shovel and hole analogy; that's exactly what it feels like.

My understanding is that the point of the postcoital test is to check CM quality. I guess she wants to do it since we're BD'ing and not doing IUI or anything. I had an ultrasound Friday and the largest follicle (cd 11) was 12mm... today (cd 14) the largest follicle was 11mm. So no new activity since then. They're going to call me with my estrogen / lh levels this afternoon and tell me what to do, but I'm guessing that they'll tell me I'm not responding to the Femara at this dose. So I'm feeling a bit of negativity myself today. There are just so many hurdles between me and baby, and the very first one is getting the damn ovary to release an egg!

[fierrbugg]

Thanks for the welcome, ladies.

EastBayK: : for you this cycle.

Gillian: Yay!! thinking thoughts for you. :

biomama: I hope that you won't need that hsg either. I've completely been there w/ the cycles of negativety. Along w/ what poetgirl said about her positive visualization - I have a list of affirmations (like My body knows how to grow a healthy baby, etc.) that I do during my worst cycles and they do seem to help keep me positive. :

willthiswork: I have had those cycles where I felt dumb for even thinking about having hope too - but you need the hope. Be kind to yourself. It's ok to feel whatever you feel, even that maybe this time might be THE cycle. This can be a very disappointing journey, it's true. Sending you lotsa s.

poetgirl: Well, you know I think you rock. That's awesome about your cyst. :

Burtsgirl:

I'm still on hold - I've re-developed an infection that I had last month. Which might explain why my cycle has been so long this time. My body has other things to deal w/, I guess. I'm currently on cd60. I think this is my 3rd anovulatory cycle in a row (spanning like 6 months). My last cycle was 94 days. Having these insanely long cycles hasn't been normal for me for several years, so who knows what's happening. I have a dr's appt today so I'll be back on antibiotics and can hopefully get on with things. I hate waiting for my body to cooperate once I've made a decision. It's so frustrating. : In the immortal words of Inigo Montoya "I hate waiting . . . "

[biomama]

hi everyone,
thanks for all the nice words and hugs. I'm so glad I can come back to this site after a tough day and find this inspiration and camaraderie.

fierrbugg, I hope your infection clears up and you have a nice ovulatory cycle soon! It must be frustrating to wait...

poetgirl, I'm going to try the positive visualizations.. thanks for the info on that. I'm so amazed how you've turned around your situation!

songbird45, good luck! Sending you lots of O-vibes

BurtsGirl, welcome! I have also looked into RESOLVE, but haven't been to a meeting. I'm thinking about going next month if we are unsuccessful again. I wish you luck in your journey and hope you find our boards helpful!

willthiswork, how are you holding up?

everyone else? Any updates? reports? musings?

I'm feeling better today, but that's probably because I was distracted at work. I'm starting to be much more worried about money though. The IUIs are do-able each month, though they are a strain. I just can't imagine the financial toll of IVF... I hope we don't have to, but I want to mentally prepare. We are already starting to tighten up and spend less, and will have to institute a major savings plan if we have to do IVF. Sigh...

[poetgirl]

I did something today that maybe I shouldn't have. This woman from Nepal called the Mother of Ayurveda (because she was the first woman in the world to be an ayur. practicioner) was in Berkely for a week. She is also an OB and has high success w/ IF, so naturally I thought why not? I was so excited to go to her today (even though I already have acup, the RE, the energy work), felt SO happy driving there. I meet her, she's luminous as you would expect and I tell her everything and she takes my pulses for a v. long time and then bluntly says "Your body is not even close to being ready for pregnancy." She said I had v. low energy inside and felt v. slow, sluggish and like the inside of my body is extremely "gentle" as in sensitive and that the tissues don't metabolize. Now I'm underweight with a really high metabolism and love to be active and eat super healthy...my mouth was just gaping open. Not that I didn't believe her, but but...then almost everything she told me to do I've been doing all along! It was her conviction in this and her lack of anything positive. I drove home with quite the bubble burst, but my intuition has been saying to take in what she said esp. for any parts that resonate but not to give this exp. too much power. It made me a little worried about my health in general, something I've alwasy thought was stellar. But there is so much to a person that can't be accounted for in one sitting. Right? GA! :
What do you think?

[biomama]

Originally Posted by poetgirl

What do you think?

sounds like a giant load of BS. I think there are people who prey on us, those going through IF. Some are REI specialists, some are psychics, some are gurus, etc. All she did was take your pulse???

I'm so sorry that she burst your bubble, and I hope you can build back up again. I think you are doing great, and have been really inspired by you. Keep your chin up! You're awesome.

[kristenok18]

Originally Posted by poetgirl

I did something today that maybe I shouldn't have. This woman from Nepal called the Mother of Ayurveda (because she was the first woman in the world to be an ayur. practicioner) was in Berkely for a week. She is also an OB and has high success w/ IF, so naturally I thought why not? I was so excited to go to her today (even though I already have acup, the RE, the energy work), felt SO happy driving there. I meet her, she's luminous as you would expect and I tell her everything and she takes my pulses for a v. long time and then bluntly says "Your body is not even close to being ready for pregnancy." She said I had v. low energy inside and felt v. slow, sluggish and like the inside of my body is extremely "gentle" as in sensitive and that the tissues don't metabolize. Now I'm underweight with a really high metabolism and love to be active and eat super healthy...my mouth was just gaping open. Not that I didn't believe her, but but...then almost everything she told me to do I've been doing all along! It was her conviction in this and her lack of anything positive. I drove home with quite the bubble burst, but my intuition has been saying to take in what she said esp. for any parts that resonate but not to give this exp. too much power. It made me a little worried about my health in general, something I've alwasy thought was stellar. But there is so much to a person that can't be accounted for in one sitting. Right? GA! :
What do you think?

Oh, Jennifer! It is so completely devastating to have someone burst your bubble like that. I remember different occasions both with IF and things completely separate where I've had this happen, and it sends me into a major tailspin each time. Did you get a chance to tell her all the things you are doing? If so, what did she have to say? I'm so sorry you had this experience. Hopefully, once you get past the initial shock and daze of your appt, I hope you can glean something positive from the visit and release all the energy from the negative aspects of your visit.