37w 3d, but who's counting??
I did yoga last night and didn't do Bridge (ie. so I could still walk today
) per the sciatica pain I've had - that was fine, but then I messed up my pelvix by having my legs in a V and leaning forward to put my head on a bolster. STUPID idea. Freaking hurt so bad... and do I stop? Nooooooo, b/c apparently I'm superwoman with a pain-wish. I could hardly walk around last night and I actually could NOT roll over in bed (read: I had to grab the mattress and haul myself (pull really really hard) over to get out and pee 3x last night). Hurt so bad, I was just (still am) peeved at myself. I know better.
Ugh! I don't know why I have to show people (who by the way????) I'm strong enough or whatever - at this point if I wanted to sit on my couch and eat bon bons I'm entitled... so I should just give it up. Ughhhhhhh.
Anyways, pelvic pain is through the roof today. Because of my own stupidity. Got lots of contractions yesterday (being superwoman at yoga), but of course nothing. Set up tons of the birth stuff so at least THAT is done and we could HAVE a baby now if needed. Washing a set of newborn clothes for both genders and have the newborn diapers completed. (Still working on the smalls).
Got meals done for about 2w of meals, shopped so I think we could skip an entire week of grocery shopping at least, my house DESPERATELY needs cleaning and I'm grossing myself out about it, but my best friend is coming Sat. to help me... so I figure I'll kick it out then, but my pelvis is saying "Stay still today moron"
so I will.
Ummmmm, my hoohaw looks scary to me - (lovely vulvar varicositis), I'm scared to see what the heck is going to happen when the baby is born
... I didn't know it could get so bad (the vvaric.). :sigh: I just feel ugly and huge and I'm uncomfortable and don't feel anything like "glowing" or "budding with life" or any of that. BLEH is all I have to say about that. I'm surprised my DH still talks all the time about how hot I am or anything... he's a keeper for sure
. Why oh why can't I see me out of the eyes I see every other pg Mom????? It's a tragedy... I wish I could.
I weighed myself today for fun and am proud to report that I've gained a total of 28 pounds so far - I am SO proud of that. With my weird diet restrictions because of intolerances, I was worried how it would go, but it's turned out pretty good! I don't think I'll have a super tiny baby (mine usually aren't so I was concerned with the diet restrictions this time that it would happen as a side effect) and I am relieved that with some good fats and attention to protein, I've done pretty well. It was weird, for 2w I didn't gain anything but I'm back to little jumps... I'd like to hit 30lbs at least...
Yeah, so more rambling... sorry.