I'm in a weird "funk" stage right now where "I'm ready" and "I'm not" at the same time. I'm so big and uncomfy and hot and in pain (SPD) and looking forward to meeting my precious, new little one...
...but then this sadness of not being pregnant gets to me. And the house will never seem 'ready' enough for me with four kiddos and two dogs, plus being physically limited right now.
I'm so frustrated with myself for feeling this way! Grrr...

I just want to "arrive" so badly. I want to feel completely ready, overjoyed, and have a wonderful first homebirth. I don't like this upsetting in-limbo feeling
at all. *tears*
Sorry for the kinda 'downer' mini-vent...
P.S. - I know my DH and I are very blessed. I think that's another reason I'm beating myself up for not feeling
great...I really, really want to! (I'm even taking mood enhancers, as suggested by my MW, in an effort to help ward off depression, etc...but...ugh...)