I miss my birth - Page 2

[Intertwined]

Originally Posted by Shanana

That is the one regret I have about my birth being a surprise UC -- the mw assistant who is also a photographer didn't make it . I can't say how thrilled I am with how my birth went, but I did feel sad watching your slideshow and knowing I would never have that.

I felt that exact way about Isabella's birth. There was no one to hire. And while my doula took some shots it's NOT the same, kwim?

[amyaebi]

Originally Posted by Intertwined

Can I just plug my profession here for a second?

Hire a birth photographer if you can! It's purely a joy and privilage to be able to give this thing to women. Did you all see my slideshow? I can't TELL you how I bawled when I watched it the first time. First three times, really. It brought it all rushing back. Watching it while listening to my birth music will have me sobbing in a split second!

If you can find someone, and can afford it, do it. You won't ever regret having those images.

I wanted this SO much for this birth (it is our last), but there was no one available. My midwife said that she would take pictures, but ended up being very ill -- she was still there but barely functioning. I did get some pictures from my mom, and I'm still waiting on some from my doula, but I wish so much that I had more. I am planning on doing a slide show with what I have.

Writing my birth stories is very powerful for me (I've actually stretched writing this one into many parts that I am posting on my family blog), and I just love to go back and read all of them. I hope to be apart of many other births in my life as a doula, but it will not be the same. The idea of having my body back someday, though, is very appealing.

Amy

[PuppyFluffer]

I love birth. All three of my births have been without pain and full of the miracle that life really is! This is supposed to be our last baby. We always talked of having two kids. A week after the second was born, I told dh I wanted another one. He laughed and said if I was still saying that when she was a year old, we'd talk about it. I consistantly said it and got pregnant again when our second baby was 10 months old.

When I was near the end of this pregnancy, I was folding maternity laundry thinking about passing it on, not putting it in a box for further use. But....now that I am holding my baby, now that I am thinking of my birth and how wonderful it was....I just have a hard time imagining that this is the last one, that I'll never go through that again. I don't feel decisively done. I also know that I truly love and am very empowered by birthing and that I dearly love newborns. I love holding them, cosleeping with them, nursing them...just watching them sleep and seeing the miracle of them before my eyes and while this is all so fresh, it it NOT the time to be making long term plans about fertility and more babies. I am definately not in any state of clear unbiased thinking.

I do have some good pictures of my birth. I have pictures of all of them. If this is indeed our last baby, I need to find a way to keep myself in touch with babies. I have considered looking into a birth photography business. I don't think I could do birth photography any time soon as I won't want to leave my nursling/small child to go attend births as the job would require.

Many things to think about...

I wish we were better suited financially. If affording more children were not a factor, dh and I would be perfectly comfortable welcoming at least one more I think. I am also a bit "older" and that's a factor....

I fully understand the sentiment on this thread.