how coincidental... we went and bought the first item for this baby yesterday too... was conscious of 'maybe its too early' and 'hope this doesn't jinx anything' actually had a conversation about leaving the tags on just in case.... sigh. but we muddled thru all that and purchased a hiking backpack/baby carrier combo thingey. its huge! we won't be able to use it until baby can hold his head up, but husband is very gear-ey and needed to buy this now, i guess! this time next year we will be able to use it
chesapeake, *big hug* to you. i have felt those same things over and over. it is so heavy i really try not to 'go there'. if you think about it, the paranoia of worry that our children will be taken from us, well, it is just a very heightened, exaggerated normal feeling of parental protectiveness over our children. there will be times when that paranoia gets peaked, but i feel like most of the time it will waver around the normal worries, etc.- the way 'normal' parents have it most of the time.
it is so good to talk it out, rather then mull it over and over in your brain. i am glad you wrote about it! and that you are feeling a little better. (((hug))) p.s. your husband is very sweet to be all lovey on the newborn outfit... my husband remains a bit standoffish about talking very much about this baby, but when he does it really melts my heart.
sage, i had to laugh when you were like 'ok, why did i just look that 26 week date up?'! this must be a strange aspect of this 'bedrest group' to you... us worrying about making it to viability... so depressing! so, you are on your trip, yow! i will be relieved for you when you are home safe back in bed- although not that the pain will go away, just that it may not have the opportunities to be increased by a lot of activity.
our friend used to work at our hospital's mfm dept and also in the nicu, she told us they like to see 25-26 week babies starting out. i don't know what 'level' our nicu is... i think i would totally want to get the baby to one that had the ability to start at a 22+ week baby... that seems very miraculous. and you are totally right- i want FULL-TERM!! not just viability! but it will be very nice to pass those baseline weeks. this little boy is such a mover and shaker, and this 4-d pic i have of him.. to my heart he is much more than just a 19+week fetus, he is himself. so, aviva, can you tell me about the sacroiliac pain? where does that come from? i have such pain in my legs sleeping at night i have no idea why that is- i am lying down all day, so why for every hour at night do i wake up in pain from my legs (thighs) hurting? is that related to sacroiliac?
here is another question for you all...
do you think being on bedrest has anything to do with weight gain or lack thereof? i am wondering because i am not gaining. i am not too worried about it, but wondering... we are not expelling too much energy, so the caloric intake is probably lower than 'normal'. but do you think that would cause a lack of weight gain? i would think being on bedrest would make us gain more than average with not having much ability to burn calories in the normal way... i havn't had a moment of high cardiovascular activity in months! and actually, just going up the stairs gets me a little winded these days! what am i going to do with a newborn- i'll be so out of shape (and with a c-sect to heal...) yikes. so, are you paying attention to weight gain? have you all gained anything since getting pregnant? i started the ivf cycle at 155ish, and am now only at 161, and i've been that weight since the ivf meds kicked in 21 weeks ago. so... just wondering.