Bellyenvy - My first cycle was cancelled due to high estrogen levels and a high number of follies. My RE didn't try to coast me, but that's because I was on day 8 of stims (hadn't taken day 9 yet) and my E was over 5600... with some 60 follies.... So I KNOW all too well what your going through.
Here's the little bit I can give. I was so distraught over the cancellation, I really went home and didn't move from the couch all day. I cried and cried
, and just felt like the whole world was crashing down on me and it was never going to happen. I got more uncomfortable for the next few days until there was no more stims in my system, and then as the follies died off I stopped taking the Lupron and ovulated out the dead girls. It sucked so badly. I know now that part of my overemotional response (fear, guilt, discontent, depression, and even some anger) were probably side effects from the Lupron that were multiplying the feelings times like 2000..... and I still look back at it and think it SUCKED.
However, I am glad now that they cancelled it, because it does become very dangerous in terms of the possibility of OHSS. On top of that, you don't want to use an imperfect cycle when you are spending this much money. It is worth it if cancelling a cycle helps them to determine the best meds protocal to make it happen for you. Unfortunately, I actually had two cancelled cycle's before we ever made it to ER and ET. Then they were talking about taking them and doing an FET if I flew again, but my third cycle was so much better. On day 10 of stims (I hadn't taken day 11 yet), my E was at 3100, so I triggered that night. My RE says most people are between 2000 and 3000 when he takes them.
Keep hoping that the coasting will help, I heard it does in some cases. Just remember, if they cancel, that just means that the next time around will be better in so many ways, and less dangerous for you. After all, is it really worth it if you get extremely sick?
If you ever want to talk, I'm here for you. I remember how hard it was - it was just in February for me. That was when I found these wonderful ladies, and they definately helped me through it as well!! But
to you, hang in there and keep us updated on what happens! You're in my prayers...