I hate asking for help especially when it's something so huge that I don't even know how to repay the help if I can even get it but I am completely stuck.
Living out here is horrible. I can't do it anymore. My own mental health is declining daily and my kids are upset mostly out of boredum but also just having a mom who can't keep it together. I can't get out of here. I've called several transitional housing places and have only been able to get a hold of one but from the things i've read it's for homeless, newly drug free and student/working moms. I don't have a job although I would love to think I could handle (and get) one right now however *I* think it's totally irresponsible to go and get a job without having any childcare, being god knows how far from the job and then trying to move in the middle of training/adjustment period. Who knows if I could even get a place close to the job that I could afford?!
Anyways I don't know what to do. I want to move out of this house and get back into the city limits. That gives me access to so much more help but I don't have the money for a deposit and I know exactly what I can and can't afford (and it's not much).
How is it that responsible people fall through the cracks? I don't have much debt (what I do have is from my xbf
) and I have enough to pay my bills except for food which I am trying to qualify for food stamps on monday (and pretty sure i'll get it). There seems to be SOOO much help for utilities, food, transportation but none for MOVING. Being in such a transitional period in my life I also don't want to sign a 12 month lease so it screws me even further plus I only have the child support as income which most people don't even want to consider! I'm series when I say that I can pay for rent, gas, insurance, utilities, cell phone and internet without shirking anyone!
Ideas? Know of someone with a place to rent? Anything? I'm completely at a loss....