I am so sorry. There are no words that will be take the pain away. But know that there are so many of us that honestly care. God be with you and comfort you during this difficult time. May He bring you peace and comfort.
I too, am sorry you had to experience this. I pray you are healing and that the hope you felt is still alive and well. You matter and Micah matters, too. It must be a comfort to know you will see him again. What are the number of years you have left here compared to eternity? My God be with you and your family.