I had a long session with my pcp yesterday to discuss my mental state/infertility. I was hoping for a referral to a new RE, but she really wants me to address my depression first. As something that is now affecting EVERY single aspect of my daily life, she said that that the chemical imbalances are also probably affecting my physical symptoms (pcos) and how I perceive them.
She thinks that the depression is past the point where non-drug interventions might help, unfortunately, but she understands my reticence and wants me to do more research before making a decision. And she wants time to research which drug-choice would be best for me. Sigh. I'm just so scared. I don't want to start something long-term, I don't want to have to be put on a forced ttc break (even though I'm taking one now, it's my choice and not someone else's, yk?). Of course, I have to travel to see the inlaws in Oct., and I feel like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown about it (mainly due to sil). I have to admit that a lot of my fear comes from seeing people in my life, i.e. parents and other loved ones, relying heavily on ssri's (etc.) while continuing to abuse alcohol and refusing to seek counseling.
I asked about wellbutrin, since it was mentioned here and I had an acquaintance (who's a counsellor and suffers from IF) mention it last week, but some of my issues include anxiety, so pcp thinks that's not a good choice for me.
For those of you have used drug help for depression, did it take the full 6-8 weeks to feel better? Was coming off of it hard? Did you feel like your old self, or something different?
Okay, this is totally scattered and lacks cohesion, but I just needed to get this out/vent. This is the one board where I feel like I can do this.
I also asked in the Mental Health forum and they are very helpful.
