I'm still here, stubbornly.
I've actually been up since 4 or 5 a.m. but I was trying to get back to sleep. All I ended up doing is coming up for reasons why *i* might be delaying the birth of this baby, psychologically or something. Maybe I'm just looking to point the finger at myself.
Been doing the caulophyllum my doula prescribed since yesterday, since tomorrow I'm facing The Great Induction Talk with my doctor
Hopefully she just wants to "talk" and not try to convince me that bellybean isn't doing well, or that I'll really hate myself if something were to happen and I don't agree to an induction next week. I don't know if I'm doing the right dosage for these little granules, and all it's done so far is give me more baby movement and more cervical jabs. No contrax or anything.
DH is still a bit sick, coughing up a lung every so often when he tries to get the phlegm out of his throat. Of course, it would really help if he stopped SMOKING, but hey, it's not like he's going to listen to me or anything. And yeah, I'm bitter about it
I'm going to try to make today an active day, so I don't end up mopping around the apartment feeling like a whiny loser.
I've actually been up since 4 or 5 a.m. but I was trying to get back to sleep. All I ended up doing is coming up for reasons why *i* might be delaying the birth of this baby, psychologically or something. Maybe I'm just looking to point the finger at myself.
Been doing the caulophyllum my doula prescribed since yesterday, since tomorrow I'm facing The Great Induction Talk with my doctor
Hopefully she just wants to "talk" and not try to convince me that bellybean isn't doing well, or that I'll really hate myself if something were to happen and I don't agree to an induction next week. I don't know if I'm doing the right dosage for these little granules, and all it's done so far is give me more baby movement and more cervical jabs. No contrax or anything.DH is still a bit sick, coughing up a lung every so often when he tries to get the phlegm out of his throat. Of course, it would really help if he stopped SMOKING, but hey, it's not like he's going to listen to me or anything. And yeah, I'm bitter about it

I'm going to try to make today an active day, so I don't end up mopping around the apartment feeling like a whiny loser.









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, and then that I peed myself
, and finally I turned on the light and realized I'm having the elusive bloody show
: I know it doesn't always mean anything, but it would certainly be nice! And I can't sleep A) out of anticipation, and B) because it feels SOOO GROOSSSS!! 
: Yeah, whatever. It really pissed me off. I told him I feel really unsupported and alone and although in general I don't feel that way, I sure did last night. Yes, he is working like a dog, but so am I dammit! And all I wanted was alittle sex!!!!! What the heck is wrong with him??!!! Geez, I think I am still a bit steaming....thanks for letting me vent! 








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