My kids wouldn't be happier if I worked. I haven't worked at all in 7 months (and was very part-time prior to staying home) and my dd still gets nervous that I am going to go to work. And she was only left with dh. Its not like she was with a stranger. She says every time it gets dark "Mommy, don't go work. Stay home!" I was a night shifter. I know the baby doesn't want me to work. He doesn't want anyone but me to hold him.
I am unsure how I would be happier. I like working. But then I feel guilty since it isn't 100% necessary financially that I work. Sans guilt, *I* am best off as a part-time worker so I get a break from the kids, and I enjoy working, but personally wouldn't want to be away from the kids on a full-time basis. The guilt of being away would kill me. So right now it is not worth it to me. I don't think either kid would be better off with a sitter/daycare. I asked dd if she wants to go to pre-school this year, and she said yes, if I can go with her. I said I couldn't go with her, so she chose to stay home with me.
And yes, if I had 30 minutes to do whatever I wanted in a day, I would have it kid free. I have the rest of the day/night with kids. No, I do not feel guilty for wishing for 30 minutes of alone time a day. Who DOESN'T want a shower or phone call or reading time without crying, fighting, whining, etc? Is that some kind of trick question or something? Maybe I wouldn't want that time alone if my kids were guaranteed to not whine, cry, cling, etc for a 30 minute period each day, but quietly sit by my side.