And the waiting continues.
I've been up since 4 a.m. after DH woke us both up with a mad coughing fit. I tried doing a Hypnobabies track to fall asleep again, but just before the end of the script, I started panicking and had to get out of bed. It's weird; sometimes the scripts make me completely fall asleep and forget whatever was said, and sometimes I get really overwhelming feelings of panic and I can't continue listening.
Anyhow, we were both fully awake by 5 a.m., at which point I had to have a full blown emotional breakdown, telling DH I was stressing out about his health and then asking him what I was doing wrong to prevent the birth of this baby. I'm walking lots, DTD, eating right, keeping active, squatting, doing EPO, etc etc, and yet...nothing. I feel like I've tried almost every trick in the book, but maybe I'm doing some of them wrong. I really can't figure this out... Anyhow, a good cry made me feel a lot better.
After a quick breakfast, we went for what turned out to be an hour long walk around the Loyola Campus. I did the nipple stim again, along with the acupressure, and then we DTD. It almost feels like a routine now.
I spoke to my mother, hoping to get some ideas about what to do in terms of distractions today, and all I ended up doing is crying over the phone and rehashing what DH and I had spoken about. She seems to think I should just go with the flow and let the induction take place as planned, and to stop stressing out about it, so I can spend my last few days of pregnancy in a happier mental state than I am now. She's been studying Buddhism and is all about the "bend like a reed in the wind" philosophy these days. I'm beginning to wonder if she isn't right...
I've been up since 4 a.m. after DH woke us both up with a mad coughing fit. I tried doing a Hypnobabies track to fall asleep again, but just before the end of the script, I started panicking and had to get out of bed. It's weird; sometimes the scripts make me completely fall asleep and forget whatever was said, and sometimes I get really overwhelming feelings of panic and I can't continue listening.
Anyhow, we were both fully awake by 5 a.m., at which point I had to have a full blown emotional breakdown, telling DH I was stressing out about his health and then asking him what I was doing wrong to prevent the birth of this baby. I'm walking lots, DTD, eating right, keeping active, squatting, doing EPO, etc etc, and yet...nothing. I feel like I've tried almost every trick in the book, but maybe I'm doing some of them wrong. I really can't figure this out... Anyhow, a good cry made me feel a lot better.
After a quick breakfast, we went for what turned out to be an hour long walk around the Loyola Campus. I did the nipple stim again, along with the acupressure, and then we DTD. It almost feels like a routine now.
I spoke to my mother, hoping to get some ideas about what to do in terms of distractions today, and all I ended up doing is crying over the phone and rehashing what DH and I had spoken about. She seems to think I should just go with the flow and let the induction take place as planned, and to stop stressing out about it, so I can spend my last few days of pregnancy in a happier mental state than I am now. She's been studying Buddhism and is all about the "bend like a reed in the wind" philosophy these days. I'm beginning to wonder if she isn't right...
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And you're braver than I would be; I don't think I want to do castor oil at all.
Your baby will come, that's an inevitable fact. And as long as she's doing okay in there, just smile and politely tell them where to shove it!
It's hard i'm sure and I think you are all so awesome for holding out and being the last ones to go. We are all cheering you on
