Awww christine...you *should* treat yourself to some chocolate goodies. This week, you have every excuse/right to have whatever yummy stuff you want. You totally deserve it!
halaroo...I'm sending all my labor vibes and energies in the hopes that your bellybean decides that today is the day to greet the world. (there's no smiley for frowning real hard in concentration, but you get the gist!). And drawing your birth (or writing about it) might be very liberating...
As for me, NST went fine, just as I thought. Fluid levels are normal though a tiny bit lower than before, and baby is very comfortable in there at 140 bpm, moving regularly and doing great. Heck, she's even in the right position (LOA). Honestly, they (the hospital staff) is more paranoid about the well-being of the baby than I am. As soon as anyone looks at my chart and sees that my EDD was June 27th, the first question out of their mouthes is "so when are you being induced?".

: Gotta love that.
My next NST is scheduled for Thursday, right before my appointment with the nurse that heads my team. Depending on those results, I guess we'll be "deciding" what happens next...the induction they wanted to schedule was supposed to happen Thursday night, but I really don't know what I want to do about it. I don't want anyone "negative" there with me, so I'm going to ask my doula to come along (or DH, if she can't make it). All the external pressures around me (my parents, my doctor, my neighbors, hell even my grandmother who was a midwife in Viet-Nam) tell me I should go ahead and induce, and I'm just so torn up about it...Last night, I kept imagining all sorts of arguments with the doctor and trying to pinpoint exactly what I feel/want for this birth. All of this is such a blur in my brain, maybe I too need to write a long convoluted journal entry to figure out what I want to do and make peace with it. I don't want to riddle myself with guilt for choosing or not choosing this induction; I've got enough stress on my plate as it is....
Anyhow, that's my rant of the day.