Thanks mamas

FWIW, NOTHING is ever TMI for me

Teneal- I totally understand you on the spinningbabies thing. I've gone thru that thing so many times and my head just spins LOL! Being mushy is a good thing! Mine's really soft too. It's almost like I could just push it away, like it could just melt. If that makes any sense! I am so sorry you are still dealing with that rash!

I hope you find some relief. It would be nice if the end of pregnancy was the most comfortable part, uh?
April- That's such a good point about being dialated and still being pg for awhile. It's been roughly a week here at 4-5cms for me and nothing. And WOW! Ctx since 20wks!! You are such a trooper! It's silly isn't it? It's not like we're only half way thru our pg's... We're all so close to the end, yet it seems so far away!
hyz- Yeah, I can get to my cervix. BUT, when I first go "in" (sorry!) to find it, all I feel is baby head. I have to reach around the back of the head (or front) to feel my cervix. Does that make sense? I guess I've never had it where I couldn't reach my cervix. Granted, my fingers are very short so it's even more of a challenge to check for dialation. Now, when ppl say they can feel the head thru the vaginal wall, what exactly do you mean? When I reach in, the first thing I feel is the baby's hard head. It's not to the front or the back, it's right in the center. Is this what everyone is referring to? Sorry if I sound ignorant!
I've really just decided to relax and just let nature do its thing. I started thinking about it and if I expect to "trust birth" than I need to start trusting the baby and my body. For some reason I've lost that focus during this pregnancy. I think part of it is that I feel like the baby and I have not had a chance to "connect". I feel like I just found out I was pg and now here I am, so close to delivery and I don't even feel like I "know" my baby. Sorry for the rambling!