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post #1 of 14
7/9/08 at 7:18pm
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I had a total break down at the lactation consultant's office this afternoon. I went in for a weight-check (just to be sure Jade's gaining well... figured I might as well since we had no scale-consistency since she was born... and weighing her on the same scale twice would give me the best idea). I thought I'd be able to ask questions and I had several, plus, today I'm SO needing support... but it was JUST to weigh her, I had to sit in a different room to feed her and while I sat in there I just cried the entire time.

I'm worried about many things, feeling overwhelmed and under-abled, exhausted, etc. and the LC was very direct and not at all who I needed to talk to today.

I don't know if I have a yeast infection in my breasts, but it feels like it's in my milk ducts now, Jade is increasingly upset during the day and is making me worry about GERD (all 3 of my other kids have had it), I'm frustrated about the intolerances we have b/c if I get the smallest trace of anything she screams for 2 days and I'm trying SO hard to avoid EVERYthing I need to but still, she cries... it's so discouraging, and in general I just needed someone to lift my chin and give me a hug - soothe some of my fears or talk to me about how I should/would know...

:heaviest sigh:


My emotions are at the bottom today I think...
post #2 of 14
7/9/08 at 7:30pm
trying to type having hard time but sending you my thoughts. Hugs from another mama right there with you
post #3 of 14
7/9/08 at 7:38pm
post #4 of 14
7/9/08 at 7:38pm
nak

just the thought of gerd or diet related nursing issues overwhelms me. i hope there is someone irl that can help you sort through this.
post #5 of 14
7/9/08 at 9:08pm
post #6 of 14
7/9/08 at 10:06pm
hugs to you mama.
post #7 of 14
7/9/08 at 10:25pm
s mama
post #8 of 14
7/10/08 at 1:51am
more s from me too...
post #9 of 14
7/10/08 at 8:42am
nak
sending love
post #10 of 14
7/10/08 at 12:02pm
I've been think about you.....how is it going today?
post #11 of 14
7/10/08 at 1:25pm
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Eh, only a few hours into the day - my middle DS is testing everything AGAIN and it was the worst sleeping night so far - sigh - but my best friend is going to play with everyone at her house for a few hours so I can get a nap today.

I'm trying to be resigned to this just being the way it's going to be for a month + (maybe way more) but I was just hoping for such a different exp. than my boys... oh well... for whatever reason, I'm meant to have crying kiddos.
post #12 of 14
7/10/08 at 4:23pm
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Originally Posted by BirthFree View Post
I was just hoping for such a different exp. than my boys... oh well... for whatever reason, I'm meant to have crying kiddos.
I think dh and I keep having babies with this idea in mind! For some funny reason, though, the baby never listens!! Dh and I have actually been talking about this quite a bit - the whole "nurture vs. nature". Are our kids difficult because dh and I are very busy, intense people? Is it genetic or do we raise them this way? Because they come out this way, I'm guessing it's mostly genetic. I guess I keep waiting for that "easy" baby, too. After 5, I've pretty much given up that it's going to happen.

Another example. My brother just had his first baby 7 months ago. He and his wife are very easy-going, mellow people. Their baby is the easiest baby I've ever met!! He's not only easy, but VERY happy. I've never seen him cry and he always has a smile on his face. Another "check" in the nature column.
post #13 of 14
7/10/08 at 6:29pm
Gentle I'm so sorry you didn't get the support with the LC that you so desperately needed...how rotten of her!

I'm getting past the fog now, but was having lots of crying (my own) bouts here as well. I know how rough those emotions can be. I hope you feel better soon! ...Baby, too! Mine is content with round-the-clock nursing, but, woosh...mama's gotta rest sometime and dozing while feeding all day/night doesn't do it for me.
post #14 of 14
7/10/08 at 11:31pm
Birthfree, I can totally relate. Daniel is 5 weeks old tomorrow so I'm ahead of you by a couple of weeks, but boy has it been tough.

I was so fragile and blues-struck for the first 2 or 3 weeks (have never cried so much in my life and felt so oddly lonely), and we also have this moderatly high-needs baby with all kinds of issues you've all heard me list before. And yes, diet-related nursing stuff is really hard to take, as is any kind of disappointing encounter with an LC or someone else you hope can help you through one of the most trying times of your life. I think people don't know or forget how crushingly difficult (as well as joyous and miraculous) this post-partum period can be.

Sending love your way....
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