Daily 7/21 - Page 2

[FiberLover]

Oooh Pazerific, sounds promising! I hope today is your day!

[Emily12581]

Just got back from my appt. My midwife swept my membranes, said I was 1.5 cm dilated and soft and Olive's head was really down there! I hope this works! I have a size-her-up ultrasound today at 3 and we'll probably start natural induction stuff thursday if I am not in labor by then. I am SO excited to have her here I could almost cry!

[mhaddon]

I'm off to the hospital. Wish me luck. At this point my lower regions and uterus are sooo iritated from contractions that aren't going anywhere that a c/s doesn't even sound bad. I'm tired and can tell I'm dehydrated. I also will find out if I do have a leak or not... I can take my laptop so I'll update when I can If nothing else I will be having the baby by tommorow afternoon

[Hadleychick]

ELV Pazerific!
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[foodislove]

GL mhaddon! I hope just being at the hospital makes the baby fly right out.

[spirit4ever]

Originally Posted by pazerific

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oh ladies : i just had to stop for a potty break and had quite a promising bathroom trip! a very *ahem* cleansing bathroom trip, and i think i'm losing my mucous plug!!! sorry for more tmi, but lots of globby pink discharge accompanied by a ctx!!! i'm trying not to get my hopes up, but this is how labor started with dd! : think good thoughts for me!

OOOOOOhhhhhh... GL!!!!

[hyz]

um, venting post here, just feeling a bit down and tired :....

Still here, 38w6d. I think I was having irregular mild contractions last night, and Baby was definitely having fun poking at my cervix. Nothing too much today, though. I'm glad. Emotionally, I don't feel ready to have this baby. I have a lot of work I need to finish at work, and DH has been so crabby and distant for weeks now. Long story, but he's been under a lot of stress for the last 18 months, mostly external (applying to schools, his father dying very unexpectedly, trying to help his mom through the loss, 80 hour work weeks at a stressful job, major exams, working on the house to get it ready for baby, etc., etc.), but he also blames some of it on me (I accept some of that blame, but I also think he's using me as a scapegoat to some extent, not wanting to take responsibility for his part in things). Last night he got a phone call from his mom that added to the stress, things aren't going well with her, and he's very worried about her. All this tension (and pregnancy hormones, probably) makes me very emotional--this morning he left without saying "love you" when I said it to him, and I know it wasn't out of spite, but because he's so tense he's just not talking much--but it's been bothering me all day, and after rushing to my OB appt and being 15 minutes late because of traffic and then waiting half naked and bored and stressed in the exam room for an hour before she finally saw me--I just burst into tears when I got back to my car to go home. I just cried for about two hours, hard. And I know it's overreacting because everything is great with my health and the baby and things seem to be progressing as they should, and things are really fine with DH, as unpleasant as they are now--but I'm just tired of being so stressed and overwhelmed--both with my own stuff to do and dealing with DH being so tense and cranky all the time. I just want him to be happy--I know he's excited about the baby coming in the abstract, but thinking about adding in a huge new element to life really adds to his stress right now. I'm afraid that even if I don't get PPD, he will. He has a history of depression, and stress/anxiety can really push him over that edge. I feel bad adding to his stress by having this baby on the way, but I also resent him a bit for causing me to feel bad, when this is a time we should both be filled with joy and anticipation, and when I feel like I'm going to need extra emotional support and warmth from him.

Ugh. I'd better get back to my work now--at least I can try to improve the things I have control over....

[calynde]

Originally Posted by hyz

when this is a time we should both be filled with joy and anticipation, and when I feel like I'm going to need extra emotional support and warmth from him.

You guys sound like you have so much going on right now...so, so much.

If it's any consolation, even when life isn't presenting any such challenges, pregnancy is experienced very differently by most guys. They're happy and maybe even supportive and understanding, but they just don't view it and experience it the way you do. It IS often quite abstract to them...certainly with the first one.

My guess is that once he actually meets his little girl he will completely snap out of it and a lot of the other stuff that seems so critically important will start to take a bit of a back seat. It won't be long now! :

thinking of all you laboring mamas as well!!!

[kris4chloe]

Kidzaplenty I actually got excited thinking something was happening for you today when I got almost to the bottom of page one and hadn't seen you post. I hope it happens for you soon, and that your bp is not an issue. I had bp issues with number four and that was NO fun at all.

As for me, I had contractions off and on all day yesterday with lots of cramping. We went grocery shopping just in case, and then I came home and napped. They started right back up when I got up, but then never turned into anything timeable or consistent. I am feeling alot the same thing morning, almost like one big contraction with no end or beginning, very frustrating.

I can not go into labor today though, since my midwife is at a wedding for her assistant over two hours away in the mountains. I would have to use her backup midwife who I have never met. So hopefully this is just all gearing me up to have the baby tomorrow or wednesday?

ELV to all those heading that way.

[prairieo]

ugh... to all of you having a hard time right now.

and : to all of you with bodies in labor right now.

kidzaplenty! Emily! I sure hope to read your birth announcements soon!

FiberLover, I don't think you are going to be alone. There's still a bunch of us. heck, maybe I will be alone pretty soon!

hyz: I agree with pp. things are going to get better. just hang in there. it's totally fine for you to be feeling how you are.

As far as I go, I'm finding a way to resign myself to being pregnant for a while more, and take the opportunity to get some stuff done instead of moping around feeling sorry for myself and worried. I've almost finished crocheting a baby blanket I started when I was in the hospital with ds2 seven years ago. I'm so excited to be done with it!

I don't know who mentioned this one first, but I think I have baby walruses on the ends of my legs too!

[imsubrosa]

Wow... I haven't been online for a few days and it seems like everybodies had babies while I've been gone, lol. :

I had an apt last Friday and we did a quick u/s to check the position. Baby is head down. Now my OB is on vacation so I have to meet the last of three partners on Friday. I met the second partner and did not enjoy it, but I already knew that he wasn't in favor of taking me on as a patient. Hopefully I get along with partner #3 just in case I go into labor before my OB comes back.

Today was the first day of VBS. I'm supposed to be helping out all week so hopefully I don't get too worn out from that. My MIL is going to take the kids for a few days (Thurs morn till Sat afternoon) so hopefully I'll be able to rest up and get some more cleaning done.

I'm not really sure if I'm ready for baby to come yet or not at this point. I'd be happy if she did but I'm not too uncomfortable to I guess I can wait.

[delightedbutterfly]

I'm 40w6d today...

Dh asked me something yesterday and I can't remember what but I told him that Aug 8 was my cut off... I'll be 43 and 3 (43 and 1 by the midwives) and I would be willing to submit to a gentle induction then... he was like "WHY?" I gotta love that my hubby is so for this baby coming when it's ready and my body doing what it's supposed to do. Although we are both impaitent.

My mom has brought up a tonne of stuff (her and bro are fighting) and they've both called and visited and vented and neither really gave thought that this is NOT what I need to deal with and I think it's mentally blocking the birth process because I'm stressed. I finally called my mom back and told her this and that yeah I want a relationship but just have one with me... stop with the "fireworks"... we'll see the phone call ended more positive than I was expecting. I just couldn't deal with the negativity over my head.

My body is contracting and cramping but not doing anything. So I'm frustrated. Either do something or don't. I'm fine being pregnant longer but I'm getting tired of the cramping, it's kinda painful. And I'm fine with the pain of labour and I'm welcoming it but don't not do anything! GARWRD!

DH has ball tonight again... I was hoping to have a baby by now. And if it doesn't come by the weekend then the "other" midwife is back on... before that would be nice.

[mhaddon]

Well I'm home I swear this is my problem- I can not labor at a hospital. After constant close contractions they pretty much stoped at the hospital. They checked me out and I wasn't dialted enough (3cm) so they sent me home. I was happy they didn't keep me for no reason so I could spend time w/ the boys and we planted some more in our garden. The bassinet also came in today so it is being washed. My surgery time is 12:30 tommorow so I figure within 20 mins or so I'll have my baby girl

Good luck to everyone else!