Hey.
I'm here. I only have a few minutes. I'm just coming home to change clothes and pick up Lilah as I haven't seen her for a few hours....I've missed her.
Mom is doing better. So that's a blessing.
On the other hand.....
We've survived a near drowning.
I hope it's something I never have to experience again. I hope its something none of us ever have to experience.
Dd1, 4, is in the hospital. She will be going home tomorrow...
We were at the pool 2 days ago and I looked away for a few seconds to get Lilah something out of the pool bag, handed it to her and turned back to the water and she was bobbing in the water. Neither I nor my friend saw her take her swimmies off and get back in the water.
I tossed off my shirt, it made sense at the time, and the next thing I remember is setting her up on the side of the pool pounding her back to get the water out. Her face was blue, her lips were blue, her nose was bleeding, she had broken blood vessels all over her face but mainly on the left side. She cried and I just held her. She was more upset about peeing in the pool. She said it was dark and she couldn't yell for help bc her mouth was full of water.
I almost yelled at her about taking her swimmies off.
Neither my friend nor I saw her take em off.
I think she was standing on the stairs (it has stairs that lead you into the water gradually) and just took em off her arms when I turned my back to grab the toy out of the bag.
I had told her she could stay in the water for some extra time bc I was sitting on the edge with my feet in.
There were other ppl there just watching. Most of them were on their cell phones and their kids were just running around. Nobody offered to help. I would've jumped in after someone else's kid. WHen I pulled her out that's when all eyes turned on us of course......and I got the you're a bad parent stares...
From the time I pulled myself and Lilah out of the pool backwards to sit on the ledge to the time I was pounding on her back was 25 seconds. I only know this bc my friend had just checked her voicemail and the timestamp for the call duration on her phone said 25 seconds. She had just dialed it when I got out.
It happened so quick. So silent. The medic said that 5 more seconds she would've been completly unconscious. and not just the almost when I got her. Said I saved her life. Whoosh.
It was by far the scariest thing that has happened in my life. My heart stopped......
I wrapped her in a towel and just held her. They just wanted to keep her just in case.....she thought we left her at the pool, that's why she couldn't see us but I was 2 feet from her sitting on the edge and I didn't see it.
When I got home later that evening, I sat and cried for a bit, held Lilah and vomited a few times. I've been at the hospital with her most of the day yesterday and a bit today.
It was just awful. The universe gave me a small reprive last week and now it's back at it's work.....
But she's ok. She knows how to swim, dog paddle and tread...Maybe she was more tired than I thought she was????
SO, that's where I've been.
I miss you guys.
Katie: Through my scanning I did see that you found out where you are going. I know where that is and I love it there. It's pretty.
Jess:

: on the daycare!!
Ok, I need to shower, nurse, nap and go back for a bit.....I need my Lilah cuddles.
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