oh goodness, I'm so excited for/jealous of all you partnered mamas!
I am still, for the most part, exactly where I was last time I posted. I guess that's not terribly surprising as it was only a week or so ago.
But I'm very impatient. See, I'm still not exactly sure where I stand with "mr. relationships".
I saw him on Tuesday again. I think it went well. I felt good about it, but I'm so used to guys making all the moves and me being chased that this is strange uncharted territory for me. I'm worried about being to forward, or too boring and quiet. I'm falling under the latter category currently, but not in the worst of ways. We're going meeting after he get's off work on Saturday night, late.
New intelligence has reached me today (by way of friend's dh who has, yet again, run into him and talked about me) that he's all worried about being too old for me (what's 17 years difference, really?
) and talking about how this may change is life and is he's ready, and if it would be weird. Friend's dh told him "you're not marrying her on saturday, it's just hanging out, man". I'm very encouraged by this. He must be into me if he's thinking this seriously about things. Right? I'm feeling confidant, though, that if I know he already likes me I'll feel much more at easy being myself than if I feel like I have to impress him to win him over.
On the other hand, mr. trouble has started texting me again. Sigh. I'm a sucker for that attention, it's positively no good. I even had a really steamy and... er... graphic sex dream about him last night.
Pathetic. I need to keep my mind off of him. Though, that's easier said than done because we hang out in his bar all the time. I'm hopeful that I bored him thoroughly enough for him to leave me alone some more, however. I dunno, this is all so confusing.