Unfortunately, today things got kind of stressful here at the house(my husband decided to go on a house cleaning rant and was bad energy all over the place, my best friend arrived from out of town with 3 children and husband in tow unexpectedly, my daughter was having a very rough day and she is generally the sweetest, happiest baby on the block...)so things pretty much shut down altogether. My body knew that I didn't want this kind of birth and so it said, no way. My midwife came by to check me late this afternoon and I am 4cm dialted and my cervix is soft and very forward, so favorable for birth, but no contractions anymore. She swept my membranes to see if that would help for tomorrow or Sunday, but I know now it won't happen today.
Honestly, as disappointed I am about the 08/08/08 birthday going by the wayside, I am much happier to start with a fresh day because this is not the kind of energy and birth my baby deserves. I am just relaxing now, letting this day go away, putting the bad energy away, letting go of my disappoinment and focusing on the work ahead when he is ready to meet the world. I also really and truly believe that things happen for a reason, so all of these things must have needed to happen and my baby needed to not be born today.
I am ok with that now and will let everyone know as soon as things "pick up again", so thank you to all of you for the thoughts, blessings and energy. I really believe it helped me get through the disappointment that was today and let me focus on what is important-being ready for a healthy, happy birth, which I hope I will have news of very soon!