What an incredible story! I'm so sorry for your loss, and send you vibes of strenght for the dark moments. I think it's so wonderful that you are spreading your story and telling it so well. Hugs, and again my condolances(sp).
I am so sorry that you went through this. I have also experienced a similar experience. It is very unfair. If you ever need to talk, don't hesitate. It is nice to know someone understands how you feel.