|Hehe....I don't usually brag, but hearing all the stories here about Mom's going back to work so soon makes me feel sad for you and grateful that I can stay home longer. For such a rich country, you'd think someone in charge would see the benefits of paid maternity leave. Maybe your children will be luckier...
I feel sad for us too.
: But, on the bright side, DH and I had a big budget meeting. It didn't go the way I wanted it too, but it started some conversations. DH needs me to bring in a certain amount for him to feel safe. I can do that working part time. I don't have to go back to working part time right away, I can take a few extra months if I need to. We went and visited a day care today, all three of us, and I actually left feeling like it was a viable option. It's a new church based program that currently only has 1 baby, they just started on Wednesday but the church has been operating a k-8 school (65 kids total) for 100 years. They showed us everything, were very cool about looking into the cloth diapers and state regulations, said they'd hold him all day if that's what he needed (totally unprompted), would love it if I came to visit in the next few weeks and it is directly between our house and my office, which is a 6 minute commute anyway, so about 3 minutes from either place. So I can stop in and nurse him if I can get away from work, which is what the other mom/baby does already as she is a teacher in the school there. A very nice feel to the whole thing... so maybe it wouldn't be the complete end of the world if he went there for a little bit and mom went to the office for a few hours.
I am thinking that I will go back to my current job for a few months and get things a little settled and start looking for something else. I think part of the problem is that I am not so thrilled with that situation on a personal level anymore, and if I am going to be away from my baby I want it to be either very fulfilling and worth it emotionally or very stress free and worth it financially.
We have also been talking about starting a diaper service, my friends and I, and I would love to have that as an option too but I think that DH is being realistic when he says that is going to be more time and risk than we can handle in the next month or two. (Time for me, risk for him). I don't know though. We will just have to see. In the course of our big emotional (lots of tears) discussions I realized we are juggling two big fears: DH's terror of being financially insecure, and my terror of destroying my relationship with my baby. So we've gotten those both out into the open and are trying to be respectful of them and that's helping.
Geez, this has been exhausting, and I am ready to not think about it for another couple of weeks. Also, we haven't been sleeping at night around here so that hasn't been helping. Speaking of which, I need to head to bed.
Thanks for listening, mamas.