Oh, and you are right; they'd love to see more of you and your kids there. I bet if you tell them your story, you'd get free High Holidays seats for sure!
I would love to go to more things but I don't want them to let me go to things thinking that I will return to the Jewish religion.
I am a born again Christian and I love the Lord Jesus and He lives in me.
I don't wish to change that, nor could I.
However, I feel very much drawn to the Jewish religion.
Which is kind of odd because years ago I left the Reform Jewish religion because I found it hypocritical.
However, I have learned that not all Jews are like that.
And I really like and admire these ones at the Chabad.
When I have gone to their events, the songs and music and prayers speak to my soul. I enjoy it very much. It is in my cultural upbringing and it feels like home to me.
I don't wish to go to the reform synagogue - I am not thrilled with them and have been to the one close to where I live and I just don't like it.
I just don't want to go to the Chabad in a deceiving way.
That is why I tell them every time I go that I was raised Jewish but am now Christian and want my children to learn about the Jewish religion.
That is totally true.
But, I don't want my children to practice the Jewish religion, nor do I wish to - I don't think.
I think I want to go to Israel.