I'm changing my reply. I'm now scared. Had an exchange with my mom which just brought up a whole lot of fundamental problems between her & I, and I am terrified I wont be able to stop the cycle, and be a better mom to my kid. I'm sure it'll be fine in most ways, but what if I do, actually, turn out to be my mom? I'm not sure I could handle me at that point, let alone expect a kid to thrive & be healthy & make good decisions. Moms have such great power (good or bad) over their kids.
I just don't know. But hey - I'm in it now, and will just have to the best I can. I just hope my best is good enough.