Wed, 8/20, still pregnant - Page 2

[Three~Little~Birds]

Still pregnant - 11 days overdue.
I am supposed to go for a BPP and NST tomorrow with my midwife if nothing has happened yet. It is my grandma's birthday on Friday, so that would be a nice day to have this little one
I am mostly staying positive and trying to enjoy the calm before the storm, but I do have moments of anxiety peppered in there...
I do enjoy being pregnant, though. Maybe my body is holding on to this pregnancy as I am worried that this might be my last one...who knows...
I also have never gone into labour on my own (induced at 37 weeks with dd for PIH, took homeopathic stuff with DS at 9 days over and think that that helped kick things into gear) so I am starting to wonder if my body even knows how to go into labour.
In the meantime, I just wait - with you all!

[mommytomahmoud]

soo i have more bloody show but i bet it from the exam today my doc is alway sooo ruff lol

anyways i wanted to help hubby drop off a car tonight at the aution but he goes noooo way i dont want u going into labor while driving hahahah yeah right i told him that labor is not comming any time soon and he goes u r still not driving

but yet i had to drive myself home from starbucks awwwww men

iam just having a sad day today i just now throught about it i have nooo family that can help me with the new baby and my son i have to do it all by my self and hubby will help when he cans but he cant take off work for too long since he owns his own business and well my in laws live in lebanon

soo iam all alone and well it is sad very very sad i was telling a friends who knows hubbys family in lebanon that i have noo one and they asked sisters brothers mom dad and i said noo one my mom and dad r too sick on oxgyen and smoke my brother does drugs and well my birthmom i dont get along with and i dont talk to her cause she lies and just is not a good person

soo we hired a doula to be with us at the hospital and she said i told ur hubby to call us if u needed anything any help and i goo u did he never told me darn hubby of mine but i could tell they just felt sorry for me cause i have noo family and we had to pay someone to help us

america is sooo different then lebanon cause over their the whole family moms grandmas aunts cousins sisters every female in ur family is their when u give birth supporting u and helping u

and here we have to hire people and then do it all alone or well i have too

and i an just loney with taking care of a toddler by myself hubby works sooo much from 8am until 2am he gets home at 10pm maybe then works from home until 2am wakes up at 8am works for 1 hr then gets ready and goes to work and i am just loney and wanting a 5 min brake from being the only care taken of my toddler

ohh ok stepping off the soap box i just needed to vent that out cause tonight it just really bothered me i think i will call my MIL and yell at her for not comming to america to help me out lol

[bettie cracker]

awww, Amanda.

[zoie2013]

Amanda. Definitely get any help you can get, even if you have to hire it. You sound like you need a break right now before your baby arrives, even if it's just to walk around the block on your own.

I'm still here, too. 40w 5d. Just trying to do visualizations, stay positive (not working too well on that one) and trying not to wonder "if this is it" every time contractions pick up. I just hope when it is the real thing, that I realize in enough time to get birthing pool set up and, more importantly, make sure dh and my mw are here

[heatherRN]

Amanda, wish I could help. We are not near family either (and much of my family would not be helpful anyway).
Take any help offered! Meals, friends offering to watch your toddler, etc.
We asked our friends to bring meals in stead of baby gifts and they all seem happy to help. I have asked them to bring their children when they bring food and spend a little time with ds...I hope it helps.
You are in my thoughts.
Heather

[*Isra*]

Oh Amanda, I totally feel for you. I had a bit of a nervous breakdown myself yesterday, lots of tears and frustration. We don't have any family or friends here either, and it just feels so lonely, and I'm so incredibly tired. My inlaws are also overseas and they came last time when DS was born and to be honest it was worse. They didn't help, didn't cook, didnt clean, I still did everything times 4! I did their laundry, was a new mom to a fussy, crying-more-then-quiet newborn, so it might be a blessing they are not here. You just never know how they will be when the baby is actually here. I wish we lived closer we could have exchanged babysitting and adult conversation!

It is hard to accept that you will have to pay someone to help you, but if that's what it takes then do it! I hired my doula to come postpartum for a week and I am looking for a nanny/babysitter to just play with DS even at home while I'm here.