Ironically enough, I saw a news story a few weeks back about a couple wanting to have children when one of them was HIV positive. They decided to do IVF in order to conceive bc there is some way of cleaning the sperm to make sure it doesn't have the virus and the mother should have a low viral level. Honestly, it struck me as rather odd since most IVF clinics won't even give dwarf couples a dwarf child bc they consider it not to be a 'perfect' embryo. I wasn't aware of the fact that movies like "Gattaca" were already happening in real life.
I just personally think that if you really want more children, then there is no need for you to grieve the loss of them when you have the opportunity to still have them and know that they healthy
If you want more children then you have just as much right as anyone else to have more.
You could even adopt if you really didn't want to risk anything and still have more children. Who better to adopt a child with HIV than a loving mother who also has it? I don't know if adoption is an option for you not; it just would be a way for you to have more children without being concerned about any sort of transmission.
I hope you are still doing well and going strong, both for family but more so for yourself. You can't very well take care of someone else without taking care of yourself first, and you definitely seem to be doing that by asking for some support
I'm sorry to hear you are having to deal with a virus that carries such a stigma in the mainstream world. It's really not fair, but at least you have found a place like this where people won't judge you. And you are so right! HIV is not a death sentence and it most certainly does not make you a whore. Congrats on being so incredibly strong!!
On a side note, I do have links to the articles about the IVF if you are interested. I didn't put them on here bc it may not be for you and they all seem to do the whole 'moral question' bull and quite frankly, I don't think you or anyone else in your position needs to hear that crap. Some are written in a somewhat friendly matter that doesn't seem to harsh, but some people are just out right mean. I can send you some of the nicer links if you wish, or you could just google it.
Good luck in everything you do. And stay strong! You are a woman and you are a mother - you can do anything!